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Post by xenagoddess on Oct 30, 2005 21:03:13 GMT -5
Things I know about myself and my weight:
I will quickly gain weight if I continually eat sugar and don't work out.
I will only gain it a bit slower if I continually eat sugar and do work out.
My gains will be much smaller if I do something about the gains quickly.
I do fine on core if I stick to it. I don't need to look at any other plan or try to figure out what I should do know. Core works for me and I shouldn't spent any time trying to figure out what else would work for me instead of core.
I will always love sugar and enjoy eating it. That is just the nature of me. I need to allow myself some sugar but in order for me to be at peace with it I have to moderate my intake in some conscious manner.
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Post by xenagoddess on Nov 1, 2005 17:26:25 GMT -5
LOSING Week #- WEEK OF
Points: 5 a day ( 35 left )
MONDAY: NC: S: = TUESDAY: NC: S: = WEDNESDAY: NC: S: = THURSDAY:NC: S: = FRIDAY:NC: S: = SATURDAY: NC: S: = SUNDAY: NC: S: =
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes) - ACHIEVED:
MONDAY - TUESDAY - WEDNESDAY - THURSDAY- FRIDAY- SATURDAY - SUNDAY -
Start Weight End Weight Weight change Next Weeks Goal:
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Post by krb on Nov 13, 2005 12:22:27 GMT -5
Wow! Appy! Glad your feeling better. Congratulations on nearing your Thanksgiving goal. -Karen
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Post by xenagoddess on Nov 14, 2005 11:32:43 GMT -5
Thanks krb! I haven't weight in for a while so we will see where I land when I weigh in on Friday.
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Post by katelight on Nov 15, 2005 23:08:00 GMT -5
Xena, I hope your recovery is going well. Your body is working so hard right now trying to heal, give it time and let your body do it's job. Here's to a continued speedy recovery. Katie
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 5, 2005 19:07:30 GMT -5
I am waiting for the bus on the wide street by my house. My flowered suitcase in my hand. The one I used to store my doll cloths in. There are big girl things in there now. Young woman things. Clothes for the weekend, lots of purple make-up, school books, and money for the candy bars that I will buy before I get to dad's apartment. I have rushed home after school so I can make the 3:45 bus to the city. Now the bus driver asks me if I am running away from home.
"No" I say, but I am mostly embarrassed.
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 6, 2005 18:54:24 GMT -5
I loved my bed when I was a kid. It was a single bed but it had 6 drawers to hold all my toys, books, and games. It served as my main storage place when I was little since my room was incredibly small. But as I got older I began to use those drawers to hide things. I mostly hide pie crust.
Some kids might have hidden drugs, or porn, or love letters but in the drawer (the one right under my pillow) I would hide premade pie crust. It was the kind that you just added water too and then mixed it up in a bowl to form the dough. I ate it straight out of the box, in my bed, at night...in secret. It was a weird thing to do and I knew it. The dough was salty and chewy and very comforting.
The other day I was in a grocery store and saw a box of premade pie crust dough. I stood there and thought about buying it. I thought about how lonely I was when I ate that dry dough. I thought about dealing with my lonliness in other ways. I didn't buy it...besides my bed is now long gone and I have no where to hide it anymore.
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 7, 2005 15:41:48 GMT -5
I have always been terrified of getting in trouble. I was the good kid. The kid no one had to worry about. The soon the be straight A student, babysitter/house cleaner, took care of the family kid. But for about a year and a half I stole things. Little things like make-up, cheap jewelry and candy. I was about 14 at the time. It directly coincided with my parents splitting up, my dad moving out of the house, my big brother going to college and the cat dying. To say the least, it was a rough year. I can't say that I particularly enjoyed stealing these things but that year I felt compelled to do it.
Then one day I got caught. I look back on it and having to pull that 3 Musketeers bar and soda from under my sweatshirt and hand them to the very pissed off store owner was possibly one of the most humiliating moments of my life. I was sure I was going to pass out as a huge surge of fear and adrenaline ran up my spine. I was terrified of his anger and the potential anger from my parents. I am glad I was caught and at the time I was very, (let me repeat) very glad he didn't tell my parents. He let me go with a warning to never come back into the store again. I never did and I never stole a single item again from anywhere.
But as I retell this moment...of being bad and being caught I am actually sad that he didn't call my folks and make them come in and bring me home. I was stealing stuff for the same reason I was eating all the candy. It was sneaky and bad and I wanted help. I wanted someone to notice that I was suffering. I wanted someone to see that I wasn't always good in though or in deed.
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Post by cyclegoddess on Dec 7, 2005 21:03:24 GMT -5
That's some serious introspection, Xena. Kudos to you for how strong you have become as an adult.
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 7, 2005 22:20:55 GMT -5
Thank you. That means a lot to me. These images and memories keep popping up and it seems that writing them down is helpful. All these little threads that make up my relationship with food and with my body...
It really isn't about the candy. It is about why I was eating the candy.
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 13, 2005 16:03:43 GMT -5
WEEK - dec 13
Points: (25 left) + 9 workout
Monday - at work - out of dinner - no sugar -0 Tuesday - cheerios - health shake, bar, crepe -10 Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes)
Monday - stair climber (40 Min) (2 pts) Tuesday - elyptical 30, weight 60 (5 pts) Wednesday - yoga (2pts) Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
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Post by xenagoddess on Dec 26, 2005 14:29:06 GMT -5
Week of December 26th Points: (19 left)
Monday - 6 Tuesday - 5 Wednesday -5 Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes)
*Monday - Stair climber 40 *Tuesday - Weight lifting 60, elyptical 30 (130) *Wednesday - walked 30 (160) Thursday - Friday - Saturday - Sunday
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Post by xenagoddess on Jan 1, 2006 20:45:13 GMT -5
WEEK OF January 2-8th 2006
Points: (0 left +0 Bonus)
Monday - Oatmeal/coffee/milk/banana - - Chili verde, orange, 2 kiwi --- scrambled eggs - - salad, chicken Tuesday - denver omelet, hash browns -5, coffee, nf latte, brown rice sushi, fajitas (no tortilla) Wednesday - sausage, eggs, latte, salad, bun -2, BLT's -2,acme steak house -8 Thursday - shredded wheat, coffee, hamburger, oranges, pineapple, chicken, vegetables,bread -2 Friday - denver omelet, salad, fruit salad, hash brownsanimal crackers, -2 Chinese Banquet-10 Saturday - shredded wheat, coffee, milk, chicken, veg, salad, dessert -3, BLT -1 Sunday - core - 3 bread
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes) Achieved - 270 (30 Minutes Over Goal!)3 extra points!
Monday - Stair climber (40) Tuesday - walk, weights, elyptical (100) Wednesday - day off Thursday - stair climber (60), stretching Friday - stair climber (30) walk two miles Saturday - elyptical (40) Sunday - day off
WEEK 1 Sweetheart Challenge - Results: Start Weight 174.8 End Weight 170.8 -4lbs
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Post by xenagoddess on Jan 8, 2006 18:08:45 GMT -5
WEEK OF January 9-15
Points: (-9 left + 8 Bonus)
MONDAY - Eggs, latte, sausage, tortilla, almonds -9, salad, chicken, fajitas TUESDAY - eggs, ham, potatoes, shredded, wheat, yogurt etc. WEDNESDAY - eggs, shredded wheat, burrito,tortilla, -2bagel -5 chicken, potato leek soup THURSDAY- cerael, coffee, banana, yogurt pudding-9, pizza -5 FRIDAY- eggs, sausage -2, coffee, shake, pizza and salad ...ugh -5 SATURDAY - oatmeal, chicken, peppers, onions, blackberries, pork, potatoes, beans, bread, salad -3 SUNDAY - cinnamon bread -3, eggs, coffee and creamer -1, salad and soup
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes) - ACHIEVED: 320
MONDAY - 45 elyptical, 5 weights TUESDAY - day off WEDNESDAY - yoga (60) THURSDAY- biking around lake 50 FRIDAY- weight lifting 60 SATURDAY - stairclimber 40 SUNDAY - danced 60
Start Weight Week 2 Sweetheart Challenge: 170.8 End Weight 170.8 no loss/no gain
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Post by xenagoddess on Jan 16, 2006 13:38:37 GMT -5
WEEK OF Jan 16th
Points: (0 left + 2 Bonus)
NOT CORE SUGAR
MONDAY - turkey burger, catsup, salad, oatmeal, pork chop, asparagus, salad, egg whites, diet coke, coffee -2 TUESDAY - oatmeal, coffee, salad and bread -2, chicken, veggies...fruit WEDNESDAY - fruit, cerael, milk, coffee, peppers, sausage (chicken), dried strawberries, broccoli, meat, bread -2, salad THURSDAY-fruit, cerael, milk, coffee, denver omelet, bread -2, burrito -5, yogurt -2, freeze dried strawberries, beef, polenta, onions FRIDAY- cerael and milk, coffee, chef salad, dressing bread -3, polenta, sausage SATURDAY - oatmeal, shredded wheat milk, coffee, lunch -3, ice cream -3, vegetables, oil, chicken, bread -2 SUNDAY - sausage -3, granola bar -2, egg whites, blueberries, coffee, cheese, salad, rib (1) -2, tofuti sandwhich
EXERCISE: (Goal: 240 minutes) - ACHIEVED: 260
MONDAY - walk - 50 TUESDAY - weights 60, elytpical 20 WEDNESDAY - stair climber 30, stretching, walking 20 THURSDAY- day off FRIDAY- elyptical 50 (level 4) SATURDAY - walk 30 SUNDAY - day off
Week 3 of Sweetheart challenge Start Weight 170.8 End Weight 167.4 -3.4
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