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keliCAN
Mar 12, 2005 3:55:33 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Mar 12, 2005 3:55:33 GMT -5
I've noticed this week that I haven't been eating quite as much, I don't think. Still too much, but maybe less. My hope from the beginning has been that this portion control thing would, to an extent, take care of itself as I worked the program. Well, I haven't been doing nearly as much emotional eating as I normally do, and I think my stomach is starting to recognize being full.
You know, it is discouraging sometimes to think about the length of time it will take to lose the amount of weight I have to lose. But I guess that's what it will take for me to learn healthier ways to eat and to form new, healthier, habits.
I started WW on January 10, and have stayed OP the entire time so far. I've been exercising regularly. I'm less than five pounds away from my 10%. People who know I've been working on a weight loss are telling me they can see a difference. I'm starting to see a difference. I'm feeling better, and starting to feel better about myself. I am more often focusing on the process, rather than just the goal. There are positives to focus on when I'm getting discouraged.
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keliCAN
Mar 12, 2005 8:24:02 GMT -5
Post by Wildflower on Mar 12, 2005 8:24:02 GMT -5
Keli, Just snooping around the journals this morning. I can really relate to all that you think. I am beginning to see a change on the "portion control" also. I have not lost as much weight as the others, but am wanting to make a deep-seated habit change. I too have had dreams....so maybe that is a good sign.
I also ran into a friend tonight who wants me to go to Curves with her...I might do it, because I don't exercise at all yet...and she looked pretty good.
I can relate to the ring also. I have one on my pinky finger which I wore as a young girl on my ring finger. Every evening I try it...not there yet.
Anyway, I hope you have a good weekend! Nice to see what others are doing....and that maybe I'm not so weird after all...........Sandy
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keliCAN
Mar 15, 2005 19:05:56 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Mar 15, 2005 19:05:56 GMT -5
Hi, Wildflower. I was a little hesitant to join Curves because of the one-year contract, but I'm really glad I did. I actually enjoy going, and I think it is helping my weight loss. I know it's helping me feel better.
My weigh-in was last night, and I gained 3.4 pounds (about the same amount I lost the week before). I hadn't done anything different last week, so I decided it' time for me to work on portion control -- and re-adjust my comfort level.
I've decided to make a more concentrated effort to drink all my water every day (and increase my goal from six glasses to eight), and to eat all my fruits and veggies. Also to make sure I get three glasses of skim milk each day.
And make a similar effort to notice when I'm eating because I'm afraid I'll get hungry, and not eat until I really am hungry.
Oh, there is soooo much to learn about myself.
Well, one good thing I've learned is that sipping on chai tea at night is almost as good as nibbling on goodies. And I've been getting a lot of needlework done, trying to keep my hands busy at night while I'm watching TV.
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keliCAN
Mar 26, 2005 15:51:22 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Mar 26, 2005 15:51:22 GMT -5
Today has been a good day. Spring break is next week, and the day is beautiful, so I got to work in the yard. That felt really good. Later this afternoon, I'm going back outside with a book, and stretch out on the lawn chair and read. Yesterday we took kids on a field trip. Rather than go into detail, I'll just say that on the way up there, we called the theater and they delayed the performance by fifteen or twenty minutes for us (bus breaking down), and on the way back to school we had to call the bus garage to hold the buses five-ten minutes because we couldn't get back to school on time (students not getting back on the bus on time, and unexpectedly heavy traffic). But we got back safely, with all the kids we were supposed to have, so it was a good trip. Then I got back to learn that my sub hadn't shown up. Oh well, I'm on spring break, so it's all good ;-) But, the food part of the trip: It was my first fast-food experience since I've been on Core. We typically stop at a mall on the way back, which means eating at the Food Court. Well, I got a grilled chicken salad from one restaurant, with FF dressing, and two egg rolls from a Chinese restaurant (I counted points for those), so I did okay. Okay, I could have done without the egg rolls, but I really, really wanted them, and they were really, really good. Wednesday, I went into Curves, and there was a list of the month's top twenty losers -- and guess who was number three on the list
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keliCAN
Mar 31, 2005 19:02:28 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Mar 31, 2005 19:02:28 GMT -5
Blechhh!
For lunch today, I dug through the freezer and found one of those frozen entrees I used to eat regularly -- chicken something. I had the points and counted them. But, YUCK! As I was eating it (I'm not sure why I kept eating, except that I knew there was nothing else in the kitchen), I kept thinking how horrible it was -- it didn't even taste like chicken -- more like salt gone bad (if there is any such a thing). Well, at least I won't be tempted to buy any more of those.
On the other hand, I had been having more and more food dreams -- the kind where I'd stuff myself, feel ill, and crave something better, which I never could find. Well, that stopped after I had something a few days ago that I'd really been craving -- a Big Mac. Again, I had the points, and I used them.
I've been on spring break this week, and was afraid I might fall off the wagon, but I haven't. Core really is do-able ;-)
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keliCAN
Apr 1, 2005 11:20:32 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 1, 2005 11:20:32 GMT -5
I got weighed and measured at Curves today: This month, I lost 5.75 lbs and 10.25 inches!!! So...I get a Curves Food Drive T-shirt (I love rewards ).
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keliCAN
Apr 11, 2005 19:43:28 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 11, 2005 19:43:28 GMT -5
I think I've posted the biggies elsewhere on the site, but here goes again: - I lost 25 pounds. - I went down a dress size, to a size I haven't fit in a good fifteen years. - I made my 10%. - I'm 1/4 of the way to my goal. Last week, for the first time, I was slack about writing down everything I ate, so, this week, I didn't keep track of everything, and it went pretty well (made me feel even less like I'm on a diet). The only thing I was concerned about was over-shooting my weekly points, so I got one of the points bracelets. Well, I wish us all a great week ahead ;-)
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keliCAN
Apr 13, 2005 18:00:00 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 13, 2005 18:00:00 GMT -5
The good news: The antique ring I mentioned in an earlier message -- it fits perfectly now. And today I comfortably wore on my left hand (with the fatter ring finger) a ring that has always been tight on my right hand The bad news: At different times today, two students took my picture for the year book. With digital cameras and all, they really wanted to show them to me now -- in pictures, I still look as fat as I ever did. It's like that 25+ pounds was still on there
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keliCAN
Apr 16, 2005 7:22:18 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 16, 2005 7:22:18 GMT -5
It's been a difficult couple of days -- the kind that normally send me running for the pizza and brownies. I haven't even wanted to binge. I've exercised and eaten healthily since I got really bad news about someone I dearly love. I think I really am learning how to deal with emotions in a more normal way.
I have a pair of cheap, inaccurate bathroom scales at home. I step on them almost every morning and many nights, mainly to help keep myself focused on my weight-loss efforts. Well, according to the scales, I'm gaining weight this week. I hope this is just a problem with the scales, since I have been eating less and exercising more this week, and have used only two weekly points so far. Even though I know I'm doing the right thing, I also know myself well enough to worry that I will be discouraged if there is a gain, or even if there is no loss.
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keliCAN
Apr 18, 2005 19:25:48 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 18, 2005 19:25:48 GMT -5
Well, I did show a loss this week (1.4 lbs officially, but probably less in fact, because I weighed in wearing thin shorts), but the losses are slowing down.
I need to focus on portion control, especially with meats.
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keliCAN
Apr 21, 2005 16:46:37 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 21, 2005 16:46:37 GMT -5
I had another food dream a night or two ago, but this one was different. I was at a meeting or something, and they had a really nice breakfast buffet -- I don't remember seeing any fruits or anything, but they had sausage and biscuits and milk gravy, and I was eating plate after plate of it. I thought about weekly points, but that didn't stop me from stuffing myself. Then I woke up, feeling full and a little nauseated. I guess maybe the upset tummy had something to do with the dream.
I really, really need to focus on portion control, but I can't seem to get a grip on it. It was a major focus at our last WW meeting, and it is my biggest issue. I know I've equated being stuffed with being satisfied for so long that I think I'm still hungry when I'm not really -- but I still feel hungry, and I'm afraid I'll go off the diet, like I've always done before, if I'm feeling hungry (whether I should be or not). I'm trying to fill up on fruits and veggies (which should be even easier as summer gets here), and I'm drinking plenty of water, but I'm still finding myself wanting (and thinking I'm needing) something more substantial. And I'm wanting something sweet (a problem I don't normally have).
I was so tired yesterday that I had to force myself to stay awake until after 8:00 last night -- and I wouldn't have done that except that I didn't want to be awake in the middle of the night and exhausted all day again. I shouldn't have worried, because I had trouble waking up at 6:00 this morning. I'm really ready for summer vacation.
Well, that's about it for today, I guess. So, here's wishing all of us good luck over the weekend.
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keliCAN
Apr 24, 2005 14:52:28 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 24, 2005 14:52:28 GMT -5
I bought a pair of shoes today in a size 7 1/2. I normally wear an 8 1/2, but in my younger (and thinner) days I wore an 8N. Well, I tried on several styles, and only one 7 1/2 fit -- the rest were too wide And the 7s were way too short. They didn't have any narrows of any size. Okay, so it's probably just the brand that runs big (because my old shoes still fit -- thought I normally do wear Nikes and New Balance, so I just lace them up as tight as they need to be), but it was still fun. Buying a smaller size of anything is fun these days. Also, I bought a couple of shorts outfits yesterday (I don't want to buy too many clothes this summer, but the shorts I have from last year, most of which are elastic or draw-string) look like coulottes (sp?). Anyhoo, one of the shirts is a size extra-large. Not 3X, like I'd gotten over Christmas. Not 2X, like I've gotten recently (including the other top I got yesterday). Just a regular, plain old extra-large!!!! Okay, so I know it was a brand/style that runs large, but, still, it was fun. And no brand or style runs large enough that I could have squeezed myself into an extra-large just a month or two ago! Yay! Me! I had another food dream Friday night (about sweets this time), and I've had the munchies all weekend. Well, I've tried to resolve that with WW "cakes" and Blue Bunny ice cream bars. Hopefully, that will help. At least I'm full and not craving anything now. My mother (who, when I was eighteen and 5'7" and 135 pounds, used to say things to me like, "You are so fat it makes me sick to look at you") told me yesterday that she doesn't want me to lose too much weight! She is really proud of what I've done so far, but when I told her I was just a little over 1/4 of my way to my goal, she thought that would make me too thin. Aren't mothers interesting creatures?
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keliCAN
Apr 26, 2005 20:31:02 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 26, 2005 20:31:02 GMT -5
Today was a really, really difficult day at work And afterwards, we had a 3-hour professional development Pizza was served, and cookies, and soft drinks I had an apple and some Smart Pop popcorn I snuck out of the meeting and popped for myself, and two bottles of water ;D
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keliCAN
Apr 26, 2005 21:15:05 GMT -5
Post by gingerjenny on Apr 26, 2005 21:15:05 GMT -5
way to go on resisting that pizza...That is a major downfall for me. Your doing great! Keep it up!
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keliCAN
Apr 27, 2005 18:49:44 GMT -5
Post by keliCAN on Apr 27, 2005 18:49:44 GMT -5
Thanks gingerjenny Actually, I knew to bypass the pizza altogether -- I'm afraid I'm still at the point where I'd stuff myself on it And guess what! I did as well today! We had a full-day session of 12 teachers, away from school, scoring writing portfolios our seniors are required to write (six selections each). You would have thought we were going to be there for a week, as much food as people brought -- junk food of every variety. Well, I brought grapes, and I limited myself to those, skim milk, and coffee for breakfast. We all went out for wonderful salads for lunch -- I had the bacon and cheese left off of mine, and counted points for the dressing. During the afternoon session, I stuck with bottled water. I was soooo proud of myself Gotta do the same thing again tomorrow.
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