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Post by xoxohart on Jun 17, 2005 21:24:35 GMT -5
Well, my classroom is all packed up. The unresolved student issues are still there, but I am going to table it for the weekend and try to work it out next week. Right now I just need R&R. I am sick as a dog. Everybody kept saying, "Why are you here?" But how could I just not show up to work on the very last day? I know d*mn well that somebody would have packed for me, and then I would feel guilty.
Right now the house is quiet. DS is out with friends enjoying his first real evening of summer vacation and DH took DD out for dinner. I ate some fruit, soup, and yogurt pudding (not all at the same time!). Now the kitchen is closed. I needed sort of soft foods because my ear is sore. I don't think it is an infection, but if it gets any worse I will go to the doctor just to be sure.
Tomorrow's agenda: Sleep late! If I feel well enough, go for an easy walk, vaccuum, and garden. The weather is beginning to clear up a little and I am hoping for some warmth to come back very soon!
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 18, 2005 22:54:26 GMT -5
Well, I didn't go for a walk. Just didn't seem like a good idea, with a fever and a little dizziness. I did balance my checkbook and pay bills (I could do all that while lounging in bed!). I'm a little bummed because this will be the first week I didn't exercise 5/7 days for the President's Challenge.
Even though I feel physically lousy, my spirits are good. I am glad to be done with school, even with the loose ends. I have been looking forward to this day for weeks and weeks. Next week, DD is going on a trip with her grandparents and I plan to do some R&R. I have a spa gift certificate; I may try to get my hair highlighted. I also think I'll go into Berkeley and try out the actual Title Nine store. There are some cute things in their catalog, but I'd like to try them on.
Food today: Oatmeal with strawberries and soy milk; beef vegetable soup; wasabi peas (4 points); steak, fresh corn, salad with avocado; big glass of milk with a dollop of yogurt and some pudding mix. I think I met all the healthy guidelines . . . wasn't all that hungry.
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Post by janek46 on Jun 19, 2005 12:09:35 GMT -5
Hope you're feeling better every day! Wishing you blue skies and sunshine.... Have the hi-lights...pamper yourself..you deserve it Jane
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 20, 2005 23:01:45 GMT -5
Thanks, Jane, I do feel better today! I had a nice, relaxing day. I went for a four-mile walk this morning; then ran some errands; then came home and watched DS and his friend in the pool. During all that I was cooking up a posole/pork stew in the crockpot. DH and I both thought it was pretty good.
So, food today:
B: polenta, eggs, Canadian bacon, banana, coffee L: Couscous/tabouli-like salad with fresh mint, basil, lemon juice, low fat feta, chick peas, peppers, tomato, onions, on a bed of lettuce S: Grapes, tea with soy milk D: pork/posole stew; 2 1-point tortillas and a smidge of bread
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 21, 2005 18:49:41 GMT -5
I am feeling so very happy today. Yes, still a little sick; yes, missing DD who is in Washington DC with her grandparents; yes, missing DH who is on a three-day business trip, leaving me alone with a surly 13-year-old; yes, issues at school still unresolved with administrators who are not returning phone calls. But still feeling happy.
Heck, I am on vacation. For months I have been putting stuff off, thinking, "That will be so much easier to schedule during summer vacation." This morning I made a list of simple, easy-to-accomplish tasks, and I have been crossing stuff off all day. Clean the kitchen floor? Check! Take the cat to the vet? Check! Take DS to get the wires fixed on his braces? No problem! Check! Write a letter of recommendation for a former aide? Check! Exercise? Check and double check!
So without really knocking myself out, and still with plenty of time to play on the computer, read, and fix DS and I healthy meals, I am feeling virtuous, accomplished, and energized.
I am so, SO very glad I decided not to teach summer school this year. To think I actually was seriously considering it back in February. Thank you, Mom, and DH, for talking me out of that crazy idea! Although I don't get paid, having a good six weeks off in the summer is a definite perk.
Okay, food today:
B: shredded wheat with skim & condensed milk, Splenda, banana, coffee L: Couscous salad D: pork/posole stew, ff refried beans, 1 point tortilla, ff cheese S: yogurt with frozen peaches and a couple of tsp. of lemon pudding mix
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 22, 2005 21:10:23 GMT -5
After I posted yesterday, I had a little binge episode: two + servings of tortilla chips, with waaaay too much avocado and half a container of salsa. I was not, repeat NOT, hungry. I think I was feeling anxious; I had just taken DS to baseball practice, was tired, it was late but I couldn't go to bed yet because of having to pick him up at 9:30, blah, blah, blah. Over and done with.
Today is better. For one thing, I finally heard from the school administrator who has been avoiding me. We'll actually get together next week. Until then, I am tabling all work-related stress. I walked four miles and did a tiny bit of housework, besides tutoring DS, meeting with his new violin instructor, and fooling around on the computer ALL day!!!! Oh, and I read. For pleasure. What a great day!
B: shredded wheat, banana, milk, Splenda L: Couscous salad S: banana (need to go buy more fruit!), oatmeal with peaches, raisins (1 WPA), milk, sf syrup D: low carb tortilla (1 point) with ff refried beans, shredded pork, peppers, ff cheese
I may go back and have a snack later.
DS is safely home and tucked into the TV; no friends coming over tonight and no going out either. I don't like having half my family out of town -- veeerrrry quiet around here, and no other parent to handle late night comings and goings. I just have no energy for complex thought or tasks at night. Yawn.
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 23, 2005 11:21:24 GMT -5
Good morning! I'm trying to get motivated. I don't feel so great -- cold still hanging around, making my head feel dizzy and ache-y. I also feel REALLY hungry -- just ate soft polenta, eggs, and Canadian bacon, and feel like I could eat the whole thing over again. But I won't. I'll wait awhile, and have a bowl of oatmeal later if I need it. I had thought I would go to the gym this morning, instead of what is becoming my usual walk. But I am still so sore around my upper back, shoulders, and neck -- ever since I got this cold. It's very weird. Okaaay . . . 'nuff whining for ya? Here's my to-do list. I'll check back later to see what I've actually accomplished. Tutor DS (we are doing this instead of summer school -- I wasn't too impressed with summer school last year, and other programs are TOO expensive!) -- DONE! Make DS practice the violin for -- get this -- one hour. Hopefully this won't be a struggle. We met his new violin teacher yesterday, and he has high expectations. I personally think that this kind of commitment and focus is just what DS needs; he is a smart kid who has trouble spending enough time on homework, violin, etc. I'll just remind him that he is doing all this INSTEAD of getting up at 7:00 every morning to go to summer school for four hours. -- DONE! Some kind of exercise -- I'll wait and see how I feel. At the minimum, I'll take my 1.75-mile walk. I've been really dedicated this week, and feel mentally ready to lift weights, etc., but don't want to harm my body. I've got to use some common sense. -- DONE! (45 min. walk) Laundry -- DONE!! Update finances -- DONE!! Make eye dr. appts for me and kids -- DONE!! Find and complete paperwork needed for DS all star bb team -- DONE! Take DS to bb practice (at night again -- ugh) -- DONE! I probably won't get to all of this, but I need direction. I'll check back later to see how I did! Here's what I didn't get to today . . . Phone calls -- dr. appts for me and kids; consignment shops to try to sell fridge, cupboard Find camera ( ) and get photos developed Write TY notes for end-of-year student gifts
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 24, 2005 10:08:47 GMT -5
Today's goals:
Call consignment shops Make Drs. appts. for me and kids Write TY notes Vaccuum family room Dust family room, living room Clean kids' bathroom Pack hall closet
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 26, 2005 11:47:14 GMT -5
Okay, confession time -- I didn't do a single thing on Friday's list. I got all silly, spent way too much time fooling around on the WW boards, and didn't do a thing but fold laundry and exercise. Same goes for yesterday, but at least I walked 7.2 miles yesterday! My legs are pretty sore.
Anyway, this week everything changes. DD will be back from her trip, so there will be karate every day, plus piano lessons, dress shopping, and general attention-paying -- something she craves, which her dear brother certainly does not. Plus I will be tutoring The Boy *every* day; I have got to get that kid on track. And I have exactly one week to pack up the house, find movers, etc. before the construction crews come. So I've had my week of laziness, and now it's time to really get to work on my obligations.
So far today -- soft polenta, eggs, Canadian bacon, apple and coffee. I'm feeling hungry and a little concerned about my weigh-in tomorrow. I've been OP and exercising a lot, but think I have been eating too much. I guess I won't worry too much.
It seems like my self-image goes through stages. I'll feel really lumpy and unsure about my progress. Then I'll have a breakthrough -- the scale goes down, or something fits that didn't before, or I'll have a particularly good workout, or get a new compliment. For a couple of days I'll feel fabulous, like a new person. Then I guess I get used to that new weight, or size, or whatever, and I feel all lumpy again. I'm in the lumpy stage right now (since yesterday). Each stage only seems to last a few days. Is that weird? I guess the closer I get to my so-called goal weight, the more different each pound makes, whether it is a pound of retained (or lost) water or a pound of fat gone forever.
Goals today -- none, really, except to exercise, read, tutor Boy, and get DD safely home. After that, whatever she wants to do!
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Post by janek46 on Jun 26, 2005 14:09:26 GMT -5
I don't see a lump anywhere...LOL You're doing a great job!
Enjoy the day and the kids......
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Post by marcia7749 on Jun 27, 2005 8:03:50 GMT -5
hmmmmm......Lumpy is ok.....can't be perfect all of the time....
It takes a while to adjust to having the summer off! You are entitled to cruise the WW boards for the day.....I surely do.....
Wishing you a great day.....and congrats on the 7.2 miles....gulp! I would be in the hospital after that....no....probably not.....I could never do it!!!! What a feat!!!.....
Have a wonderful, fun day!!!!
Marcia
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Post by xoxohart on Jun 28, 2005 16:57:47 GMT -5
I love it when people read and respond in my journal -- gives me a lift! Thanks for the encouragement, Jane and Marcia. I am feeling a little bit less lumpy today!
I had a really busy day yesterday -- actually got quite a bit of packing done, hauled a bunch of stuff up to the attic, hired movers, made a bunch of the phone calls I had been avoiding, took DD to karate, worked with DS, made both kids practice their instruments, and went for a 4-mile walk. DS had a friend over for dinner and spend the night. The boys crack me up and also drive me crazy. They have gotten so big, tall, lanky, deep voiced, seemingly overnight. When The Boy has a friend over, it seems like they fill up the entire house. It's just like that cartoon strip, Zits, where the boy, Jeremy, lies on the couch . . . but his huge feet extend all the way into the dining room. They are just like that.
Boys are gone now -- they went bowling with the friend's mother and little sisters. DD and I went for a walk and are getting ready for karate in a few minutes. I have been feeling kind of lazy/cranky all day (too much company can do that to me).
Food today: B- oatmeal with soymilk, fresh blueberries, syrup L - leftover pork posole casserole, added soy cheese and refried beans S - smoothie with nonfat milk, icecubes, choc. pudding mix
I'll probably have a latte or something at karate, and maybe snack on some grapes later. DD and I made a huge baked spaghetti casserole this morning, which we will pop into the oven tonight for dinner.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 2, 2005 22:26:37 GMT -5
I haven't been doing all that well. Still feeling lumpy. I AM on program, though, and am being a little bit stricter with myself about counting up "incidentals" -- you know, such as the marinade that DH puts on the chicken before grilling, or the BLTs (bites, licks, and tastes) that I may take of somebody else's non-Core food. The marinade is a big one -- not really points-wise, but it is something I hadn't been counting. Recent posts on the WPA board made me re-evaluate that decision. I realized I was -- GASP -- a tWEAKer! ;-)
I have been literally afraid to post the past couple of days -- didn't want to sound judgmental, especially as I know that I sometimes let slide things I shouldn't. But I am also grateful for those posts. Besides being entertaining, they are thought-provoking, and made me realize that it would actually be freeing to really be sure to count EVERYTHING and follow the program to the letter. I go through these "lumpy" phases as I mentioned earlier, but part of it is really just a lack of self-confidence. I am thinking, "I must not be losing weight anymore; in fact I must be gaining." I feel "fat." But the truth is, if I am following this great program as written, without tweaking and fooling myself, I don't need to worry. I will lose weight. I can stop feeling quite so lumpy.
Also I think TOM is near (for me, actually, it's "time of 3-weeks," which is really yucky).
Also the renovations start Wednesday. Movers come Tuesday. Am I overwhelmed? Just a little. Still happy to be off work, but in that gearing-up-for-really-getting-to-business mode. Yes, I am a procrastinator. I am extremely deadline driven and tend to put things off until deadline. Not a great trait. But the thing is, I ALWAYS get things done on time. Hmmmmm.
Food today:
Steel-cut oats, fresh blueberries, sf syrup (I measured this time to see what to count -- used 18 calories worth!) and soy milk Couscous salad (fresh herbs, veggies, ww couscous, 1/4 avocado) Watermelon Snack: popcorn (split a bag with DD) apple Banana Dinner: Grilled chicken breast, my version of asian-flavored green beans; more couscous (family was having regular pasta with pesto; we are just trying to use up what's in the fridge!) Wine
Counted WPAs for the wine, extra oil used in green beans, chicken, and couscous.
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Post by janek46 on Jul 3, 2005 15:31:26 GMT -5
Breathe.........relax..........breathe............smile!
I can see the stress in your posts...do the best you can, and let it go.....
I thought I was the only one with 'lumpy' days!! We'll get through those too.........
Have a great 4th....Jane
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Post by Wildflower on Jul 5, 2005 10:19:34 GMT -5
Hi XOXO! I so enjoy snooping through your journal. I have some of the same thoughts. It helps me to realize that I am not alone. Hand in hand we can do this. Hope you had a good weekend, and that you enjoy the rest of your summer. I know the feeling about "deadlines"...I am making a list this morning too. It feels so good to check things off! Sandy
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