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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 17, 2007 20:56:55 GMT -5
tuesday night:
One more day OP. I have a personal goal to make it 14 days completely OP. Then reassess and try to do even better than that. But I know in truth it's just doing it one day at a time. It seems easier to think of it as only one day that I need to keep to core instead of many. My real goal is to do it for a whole yr. That will be tough but I truthfully think I can if I do it in mini steps.
I have been trying to think mindfully while eating. I was doing good all day except dinner. It was not until my plate was almost clean that I considered thinking about what Iwas eating. I was able to stop and leave something on my plate. In the past I would have cleared it off even though I was full. A little late but still better than in the past.
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 18, 2007 7:43:05 GMT -5
Wed Trying to keep the momentum going with my will power. I promised to make cupcakes a while back for a friends birthday. It's friday and I really don't want to be tempted by them. I started thinking a bout how I will handle the temptation. I really want to not give in. Time will tell. Thrusday night I will be making them so they are fresh *************************************************** I am realizing that I really am building up some anxiety over my obstacles I know are coming up this week. So I have decided to calm down and just work it out. I am not going to work myself up over some cupcakes. I plan on having fruit on hand to deal with the sweet desire and try to look at it as something disgusting like tongue. Just the thought of that is replusive to me. I know other people love it. But ick!!! today: breakfast: Coffee w/ ff milk and 1 splenda kasha go lean, a sliced banana and ff milk Lunch: leftover pineapple chili and brown rice 10 almonds snack: cottage cheese and crushed pineapple mini bag smart pop popcorn Dinner: green salad w/flank steak(leftover) sliced apple Still trying to keep the mindful eating a priority when sitting down to eat. I think I am eating more than I shold sometimes but I snuck a peek on the scale this morning and I am down. Hopefully it will hold until WI. Maybe even go down a bit more
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 19, 2007 9:34:48 GMT -5
Thursday
It's a really busy day. I am trying to stop and enjoy what I am eating instead of just shoving the food in and running to complete my next "to do". Plus I am really tried today. DH was joking that it was because I have been a single parent all week. He has a big presentation and has been working late all week. I have been on my own since Monday. I have a lot of friends that have husbands that travel a lot. TG I don't.
I have tried to curt tail any eating without thinking. I made sure I brough only core foods and lots of them. So I should be ok today. I realized that tomorrow will make one week OP. This is a big step for me and it's keeping me focused. Cupcakes smupcakes! I can live without them!
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Post by nightsinge on Apr 19, 2007 11:27:02 GMT -5
I love your focus and your mindfulness! Me too--trying to be mindful and slow the heck down. Your day by day attitude is awesome also. Good for you for working on the most important changes--the internal ones!
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 20, 2007 6:55:10 GMT -5
Friday morning - one week OP
I survived the making of the cupcakes without a lick but I still have the frosting to go. I'm sure I'll do fine I just have a habit of licking my fingers. Goes hand in hand with mindless eating. I am starting on the frosting after my posting and morning cup of java.
I am very proud of myself for how I handled last night. It was "Mom's night out" with my son's class. We met for dessert and coffee. I ended up having fresh berries and some herbal tea. I was not even hungrey but felt since we were at the restaurant I should order something.(I did and it was core).
After the cupcake hurdle it should be a quiet day. Work, hair cut in the afternoon and Shabbat dinner. I am looking forward to some slowing down from the week.
Mini goals today:
1. NO cupcake/frosting nibbling 2. Mindful eating 3. 8+ glasses of water 4. keep to core
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Post by katelight on Apr 20, 2007 6:57:15 GMT -5
Awesome Pam, a full week O.P. All any of us can do is take one step at a time, in our daily lives, our weight goals, spiritually...the list goes on...one day at a time. Take care Katie
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 20, 2007 17:31:51 GMT -5
Friday afternoon, I am being tested BIG TIME!! I made it through the cupcake situation but I came home to sweets galore. DD (3yr old) made chocolate truffles, cherry cobbler and cowboy cookies at cooking class today!!! It smells sooo good. I really don't know what to do with these sweets. I feel bad throwing them away since she made them. But they are so tempting. She told me "they are delicious". It's funny coming from a 3 yr old.
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Post by katelight on Apr 21, 2007 7:51:04 GMT -5
Can you make goodie bags to give to neighbors and family? Teaches her that it's good to share something you have made with your own hands. Congratulations on making it through the cupcake challenge. I don't bake much any more because I have such a hard time resisting those licks. Have a great weekend Katie
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 21, 2007 21:15:35 GMT -5
Sat evening, The day did not go well. I woke up with a headache (allergies) and was not thinking/grabbed for the cowboy cookies that DD made and the day started off on the wrong foot. I don't know if I was just tired of thinking so hard about staying core or if I had had enough testing of my will power. We did last night give our neighbors the chocolate truffles (one less thing for me to binge on today.) I keep thinking of being good but then grabbing for anything chocolate. A given frim how I started the day. Once I start eating sweets it continues throughout the day, unfortunetly. My goals for tomorrow are simple: NO SWEETS!! eat more fruits and veggies drink 8 glasses of water. Today is over and I need to let the guilt go. I threw into the garbage anything that I binged on (if there was anything left). I did do some grocery shopping today so I do have the basics for a good core day. It will be an interesting test to see if I am able to spring back into core so quickly. In the past I would let it go for a week sometimes two. But I really do want to lose these last 15lbs. No matter how LONG it takes. It really felt good this week to be OP.
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Post by geha on Apr 21, 2007 22:25:29 GMT -5
Pam, I can definitely relate to one sweet following the next! Hope you you have a wonderful totally Core day today...followed by another one tomorrow Cathy in Fih, Lebanon
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 22, 2007 20:54:00 GMT -5
Sunday night,
The kids are finally in bed but not asleep. I am so tired. I made it through the day OP. And survived a kiddy birthday party without any sweets. So one day done. I know tomorrow will be better. It will be WI so I am not sure what to expect.
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Post by nightsinge on Apr 22, 2007 22:11:33 GMT -5
When I read this past week, I see that you chose to resist finger-licks and cookies MUCH more often than you chose to eat them. That's a NSV in my book--congrats!
Which of those treats would you have eaten pre-core? Or should I ask, which of those treats would you not have eaten!
Kudos to you for continually making good choices.
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Post by sulee on Apr 23, 2007 8:39:52 GMT -5
Hi Pam,
Sounds like you really are making some great changes and choices in your life. The whole eating things has GOT to be tough with small children... You have to have things around that i simply don't and then you are faced with constant choice making of the highest level.... You are rocking, girl!
and I'm sorry I'm so tardy with sending thoughts about your kitty. I always have wee pets around and know the pain of losing these dear furry friends.
sulee
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Post by pammywhamy on Apr 23, 2007 21:06:35 GMT -5
Monday evening,
An almost core day, I used real salad dressing (lot sof it)and had a roll with dinner tonight as weill as full fat cheese. But It was not straight sugar and I am starting to feel like I can do this again. Be OP that is. I had WI this morning and I am up .2 (137.6) Not a big change but still it would have felt better to be down .2 instead. That is one of my inner goals this week. Get back to where I was and down some too. I just want to get below 135 and at least maintain for a while. I have been hoovering at 136-139 for the past 2 yrs. This would be a big break in my plateau. It would mean a lot to me. I know I will do it, I just don't know how long it will take.
I'm working late Tues & Wed night so I need to plan ahead and not eat what is leftover from clients at work. I am actually looking forward to spending some quiet time at the office. It's always so busy 9-5. After that everyone assumes I am gone and I get no phonecalls to distract me. It is always so productive. I love that feeling.
Mini goals for tuesday: Drink lots of water!!! be prepared foodwise for staying late at work at mealtime think about what I am eating instead of what I should be doing for work
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Post by pammywhamy on May 1, 2007 21:52:37 GMT -5
Tuesday Night,
I forgot to post yesterdays WI ( lost 1.5) 135.9 I was too busy trying to figure out how to visit a friend in Hospice. I made flight arrangements this morning only to find out 15 minutes later that she past away. It was not a fun call back to American to change my flight. Thank goodness I had a sypathetic woman on the phone. I'll probably end up being in a training session giving an example of how to handle a hysterical crying woman.
The kids have helped distract me. Makes me realize how lucky I am and to try enjoying life instead of going through the motions to keep on schedule. I'm baking oatmeal cookies right now. Not my favorite so I am hoping it will curb my temptation to indulge. I'm doing ok, I've only had two cookies. It's enough. I went for a long walk (1 mile) today with a friend from work so maybe it was worth one cookie.
Tomorrow I will be busy trying to get ahead since I will be out on Thursday. But I will make time for another walk. It really helped me today and I know I'll need it again tomorrow. My flight on thursday is at 8am so I have to be out of the house by 6am to make it. So I have to really try to organize and plan ahead so I don't make decisions with limited choices. I plan on bringing some fruits and veggies to nibble on. I hope it helps. Her death has been a big blow, I'm not sure how I will be handling it over the next few days. Time will tell.
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