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Post by xoxohart on Jul 20, 2008 9:31:12 GMT -5
Forgot to mention -- this morning was down to 148.75. My weight sure does fluctuate from day to day.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 21, 2008 18:52:18 GMT -5
This morning, 149.75, and now it's TOM.
Today, somebody told me I looked really skinny and asked if I'd lost weight. Yay! I still can't tell anything, but the truth is it's only been a week. I do feel better, though. I'm not obsessing over food.
Food today: B -- shredded wheat n bran, blueberries, soy/skim milk mix L -- wheatberry, southwestern ingredients; grapes D -- brown rice, ff refried beans with chipotle seasoning and garlic, ff cheese, avocado
Today I avoided bagels at work. One more day to go.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 22, 2008 8:48:50 GMT -5
Food planned today:
B -- shredded wheat n bran, blueberries, soy milk, coffee L -- wheatberry salad S -- latte, fruit D -- pork loin roast, asparagus, potato S -- glass of milk
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 23, 2008 16:43:36 GMT -5
Today's weight: 148.25 This is after eating a few points at friend's happy hour party last night, and drinking lots of wine. Today's plan: B -- crispy polenta, Canadian bacon, eggs L -- wheatberry salad (the last of it) S -- yogurt with blueberries D -- ![???](//storage.proboards.com/forum/images/smiley/huh.png) Perhaps I'll make spaghetti (in the mood for comfort food!), greek salad My sister comes tomorrow; I'm excited.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 24, 2008 10:27:01 GMT -5
It's nice being on vacation. I am feeling kind of relaxed. Today I am going to call the doctor to try to get a referral for myself to see a therapist. I am going to exercise. I am going to eat healthily. I am going to spend some time with the Girl and the Dog. DD and I have a thing we call "A Dog's Day." We take Bam Bam to the dog park, stopping at Starbucks on the way. We watch our guy frolick with his friends. Then we take him out to lunch someplace with outdoor seating. He lies under the table while we eat our food. We stop at the petstore on the way home and buy him a toy. We love to spoil Bam Bam.
We can't exactly do that today; for one thing, we have no car today, and for another, we are economizing. So we will take Bam Bam for a nice walk, then end up at Starbucks and enjoy our treats at the outdoor seating, while Bam Bam greets customers and drinks from the water bowl they provide. We are lucky to live where we do, where just about anything you would need is within a half a mile.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 25, 2008 10:47:40 GMT -5
Today's challenge will be eating two meals out. I've got 20 WPAs left for the week; my new stash begins tomorrow.
I went for two walks yesterday -- 2 miles with DD and Bam Bam; about 4 with my sister. I used those APs for wine and a little butter on my broccoli.
Weight is pretty stable; it is TOM and I expect to see a small loss when it's over.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 26, 2008 9:14:56 GMT -5
This morning -- 148.5. Although I'd love to see a lower number, it is not what indicates my success. Yesterday I wore a pair of pants I hadn't worn since March.
Today's planned menu:
B -- breakfast "sandwich" made with pan-fried polenta, egg, Canadian bacon, slice of ff cheese
L -- ff refried beans, ff cheese, avocado
D -- lean steak, veggies
Snacks -- ff latte, fruit, yogurt, veggies
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 30, 2008 8:07:37 GMT -5
I've been doing really well with the food, even eating at my parents' house and going out to eat several times over the last week, with my sister visiting. I haven't felt deprived at all, but I have been hungry often. I think because I haven't had access to very many grains -- if I'm at my mom's house, I end up eating fruits and veggies because there's nothing else besides cold cuts and bread, which are not Core.
Today's plan:
B -- breakfast sandwich with pan-fried polenta, egg, ff cheese, Canadian bacon S -- yogurt, blueberries L -- white bean salad, tomato, lettuce, avocado S -- latte, fruit D -- I'm going to ask DH to grill some fish, veggies, and corn
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 31, 2008 9:14:36 GMT -5
I feel so tired and full of aches. Ugh. I'm going to make a dr. appointment today. My sister left yesterday; we had fun but now it's back to real life.
Today's plan:
B -- 1 slice ww toast (point); egg with ff cheese and C bacon S -- yogurt, blueberries L -- beans, wheatberries, corn, veggies, avocado S -- latte, popcorn, fruit D -- Core spaghetti, salad
I'm going to go make my coffee now.
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Post by xoxohart on Jul 31, 2008 19:20:25 GMT -5
Our car was broken into today; we were the victim of a "smash and grab" robbery. What a day.
This morning, I called the doctor about my neck/shoulder/back pain; they had me come in. The doctor diagnosed "stress." She couldn't find anything wrong; the chest pain/tightness she said was due to stress because of everything going on. I have an appointment with a therapist in a couple of weeks; in the meantime I also have heavy duty painkillers and a muscle relaxer for night time to keep the muscles from cramping up again.
I knew it was stress. In fact, it's a relief to know that the pain is caused by stress and not by a heart attack, bone cancer, or some other shocking illness. Stress is kind of obvious; I feel oddly less stressed knowing that there is "nothing else" to worry about.
Kind of ironic that the car was broken into as I was taking steps (literally) to ease my stress. DH, DD and I took Bam Bam to the Lafayette Reservoir to take a nice family walk. It is a beautiful, perfect day, not too hot, breezy, the sky a deep, clear blue. The reservoir is beautiful and serene. To DH's relief, we saw no rattlesnakes.
But when we got back to the parking lot, the driver's side window was simply gone. Shards of glass covered the ground and the driver's seat -- my beautiful leather seats. They took my purse, which I had stupidly left on the floor, in full view -- even though I KNOW people who have had this exact same crime happen to them. There was nothing valuable in the purse -- I had my wallet with me. But they did get our address and the key to our house, as well as my cell phone, my favorite lipstick, my favorite purse, and some hand lotion I had bought this morning.
DD was very upset, but I am not, not really. Nobody was hurt; only the car window was broken; life goes on. We have changed our house locks; the car will be fixed tomorrow. I will never leave anything in the car again. The poor thief got nothing that will be worth anything to him; my cell phone, the cheapest model available, has been cancelled. It amuses me slightly to think of the poor thief, going to all the trouble to break the window and make his escape, then looking through my purse and finding . . . old kleenex, used lipstick, a battered cell phone with not even a camera, some crumpled grocery lists. I'm so glad I didn't have my calendar in the car.
How has this affected my food for the day? Badly. I did come home and eat a PB & honey sandwich. Comfort food seemed appropriate. Tomorrow I will be back on track; today I am giving myself a break.
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Post by xoxohart on Aug 2, 2008 8:58:42 GMT -5
My car is still in the shop; the motor for the window was damaged and they had to order that part and replace it as well. Today we are juggling cars, big time. My friend is giving me a ride to our meeting at a neighboring church; Boy is taking the car to meet his girlfriend's dad's family; DD is skipping her tai kwon do. Never, never leave ANYTHING in your car, you hear me? This is a very common crime; everyone I tell has a story about someone else it has happened to. And in "safe" places like the church parking lot (MY church parking lot, in fact!).
Today's plan:
B -- 1 pt English muffin with 1 egg, 1 slice C bacon; 1 slice ff cheese (+1 WPA) L -- bean salad on greens; glass of milk S -- blueberries, yogurt; sliced yellow peppers and carrots D -- curried chicken; brown rice; peas
veggies: 5; fruits: 1 dairy: 2.5
Hopefully my car will be ready and my friend can drop me off at the garage after our meeting. Then I MUST go in to work to get ready for Monday, call the parents, etc. I am very excited for the next session of summer school (it lasts only 2 weeks). It feels like starting fresh, since it will only be my new students.
My challenge this week will be visiting my cousin's house on Sunday, after his daughter's play. I'm not sure if we are expected to eat a meal. I'll make sure to earn some APs tomorrow just in case.
For some reason I've been so very tired, even though not working this week. I suppose it could be the muscle relaxer the dr prescribed, even though I only take it at night. Actually, though, I was very tired before I went to the dr, too. Unfortunately, the pill is not helping with sleep; I still wake up several times. But it is helping somewhat with the tightness in my back.
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Post by xoxohart on Aug 3, 2008 9:31:45 GMT -5
I didn't exactly stick to the plan yesterday. But I had an excellent meeting, feel very energized about my next volunteer project (revitalizing our church book cart and making it profitable). The meeting was near the garage where my car was being fixed, so my friend dropped me off there. My car is pretty again, almost as good as new, except for some tiny tears in the leather upholstery from all the thousands of shards of glass. And my bank account is much lighter, ugh. Not what my family needs right now! I feel like all these extra hours I have been working have just been to make a small dent in my car repair bill.
I spent a couple of hours in my classroom yesterday trying to get set up for tomorrow. Really, I could spend a week doing all that would need to be done to make this program the way it should be, but I can't afford the time. I'm not being paid enough to do that. On the plus side, next week I will have *lots* of help from the paras -- 45 minutes/day times five other people.
Anyway, this situation is mildly frustrating for me because I want everything to be as good as possible. And yet the sane side of me says, "It's okay, it will be great, it always is." I am very good at my job, even if I am winging it. I am surrounded by others who are also unbelievably fantastic at what they do. My main weakness is lack of time. I truly believe that I should be paid six figures for what I do; I certainly would be willing to work 80-hour weeks if I were being compensated for that, instead of 35. As it is, I, and every other teacher I know, work way more hours than 35, and we are not paid for it. And folks, all that vacation time you admire? We are not paid for that. When I have a week off, I am not being paid for it. And yet usually, at least one day of any week off will be devoted to work. Rant over.
Today will be busy as well. Heck, the rest of the summer is over-the-top busy. Today, church and seeing my cousin's daughter's play. Hopefully I can squeeze in a Bam Bam walk. Tomorrow through Friday, working full time (being PAID for 8 - 4:30 but I will actually be at work at 7 am, as I always am). The rest of our weekends are busy, as well.
I think DS is doing okay. We are not sure if he got a decent grade on his last summer school course, but he did work hard and stuck it out. I am praying that he got at least a C. In any case, I am very proud of him.
DD has been her sweet self; she really floors me sometimes with how mature and giving she is. She has been trying to walk or run every day to get into shape for black belt training. How cool, to have a daughter training for a black belt. Did I mention how beautiful she is, and how smart? Proud mama here.
Guess my biggest worry is DH and his lack of job. He is trying so hard. We'll hang in there.
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Post by girliepurple on Aug 5, 2008 13:00:57 GMT -5
Sorry to hear about your car! But you are right, life goes on and no one was hurt, nothing valuable stolen. I hate thieves. I will take your advice and never leave anything within sight in my car! I usually lock my purse in the trunk, duh, they can still break in there. But I guess not as easily?
I think you're doing great with all the busyness and stress in your life!
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Post by xoxohart on Aug 7, 2008 19:52:58 GMT -5
Work has been fantastic this week. Just sayin'. I confessed to one of my co-workers that it has been like a vacation -- because I have so much help, and so few students, just for these two weeks. In any case, I am really and truly excited and motivated for the school year to come.
Boy has gotten into some trouble, sneaking out last night, cutting through some grumpy old man's yard, who chased him, causing Boy to lose his cell phone. The man found it, found "Dad" listed in the phone numbers, and called DH. He also called the police. He said that if he'd been able to find his gun, he would have shot the boys. Apparently, his car was broken into last month so he's feeling kind of upset at the thought of trespassers, and I certainly don't blame him. I'm sure glad he didn't shoot my son, though.
The police came to our house at 2 a.m. last night. I can't believe I slept through this; normally I do not sleep through anything. The officer, after checking with DH privately to make sure he understood that he was trying to scare our son straight, told Boy that he would be keeping an eye on him, and that if he ever got caught sneaking out after curfew again, he would be sent straight to juvenile hall. Which isn't true, but Boy thinks it is.
Boy is now scared ****-less, very quiet and remorseful. When I got home, he had completely cleaned, vacuumed, and dusted his bedroom. He would not rat out the friend he was with. I have told him he better make friends who won't get him into trouble, and that I do not like the company he has been keeping. Time to make better choices.
My food has not been good this week. I've been happy and not feeling so stressed; I think it has more to do with having chips in the classroom for kids' snack and also with working too many hours and being physically tired. Not a healthy combo, even if I'm having fun.
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Post by xoxohart on Aug 11, 2008 19:54:22 GMT -5
I've been so tired lately; it was really bad over the weekend. I think the effect of not eating very well, combined with no dedicated exercise, is taking its toll. I need to get better about that. This morning I did not go to the gym; I turned off the alarm and slept a little more instead. I did not leave for work until 7:45. It's so nice to be able to do that! But I should be able to get a walk or something in first. Tomorrow is another day . . .
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