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Post by katelight on Sept 20, 2006 6:47:20 GMT -5
Sulee, I'm so sorry to hear of your friend's loss. What a difficult flight that must have been for your friend. My prayers for her and you. Take care Katie
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Post by sulee on Sept 20, 2006 21:41:14 GMT -5
Yeah, thanks Katie... it's going to be a rough patch for my friend and her family.
today was ok eating wise till dinner when i didn't have a good plan. but somehow i made ok choices...
bkfst: oatmeal w/ blueberries my standard coffee (1)
lunch: lentil soup banana leftover pasta w/ tofu
snack: banana rice crackers (1)
dinner: veggie burgers w/ soy cheese and a little bbq sauce a little more tofu pasta (3) orange ice cream (2)
power walk 45 minutes, strolling 10 yoga 1 hour dance class 30 minutes
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Post by sulee on Sept 21, 2006 7:44:12 GMT -5
note to self: this daily weighing in sucks and I need to stop it. my mood gets completely shifted by the numbers... even though i'm smart enough to get that if i eat late, there will be a slight gain. yesterday i lost over 2 pounds in a day...just another shift... and my mood was blissful. today i'm up .6 -- partially to compensate for the crazy water loss of the day before, no doubt, and because i got home less than 2 hours before beddy bye time and ate dinner in that window as well -- i'm crabby as hell That might also be because i had to get up so early for a stupid faculty meeting too!! ) BUT this cranky girl will not soothe the inner beast with coffee cake, dammit! i already made yogurt-oatmeal-blueberries to eat during the meeting! here's to an improved mood! and trying to let go of the daily scale obsession...
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Post by marcia7749 on Sept 21, 2006 9:01:38 GMT -5
You make me laugh!!! I see myself in CAPS !!
I finally gave up on giving up the daily weighing and started posting my daily weight on the Daily weigh in board....
Actually it is helping me from going crazy....seeing the trend in print seems to be helping me!!!
I would love to give it up.....but since I can't....this option is working for me!!
Wishing you the best!!
Marcia
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Post by mbintexas on Sept 21, 2006 10:20:03 GMT -5
Sulee - I struggled with wanted a scale because waiting to WI once a week at my meetings was KILLING me, but I think that after hearing how it affects people who have one that I should wait until I am at goal to get one.
My WI is on Tues and by Sat I am DYING for some feedback.......
Thanks for your post, Michelle
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Post by girliepurple on Sept 21, 2006 10:41:49 GMT -5
Sulee, I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's father too and will keep them in my thoughts... Regarding daily WI I don't know how you do it because I would really go crazy and I can see you are too!! I used to WI on the morning of my meeting to get my "real" weight at home, because my meeting is 5:45 pm, after having eaten all day...but I realized, who cares... the number is the number and I only want 1! So....I quit cold turkey and now only WI every week at my meeting and if I'm on vacation...well I just wait until the next week! It wasn't as bad as I thought. Like you said, too many fluctuations due to water, TOM, salt, the list is endless. Try the Cold Turkey Challenge for 2 weeks...if you go nuts either way, then go back to daily WI, LOL! ;D
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Post by sulee on Sept 21, 2006 16:44:27 GMT -5
wow, thanks for the pov's re: the scale thing....it sure is a THING! and i'm still not sure how i'm going to address it... just say no, give up giving up, or something in the middle. but for pete's sake, Michele, if you don't have one... don't get one!
today was a good eating day... i even told myself twice, oh stoop looking for food, you're not even hungry and once i said ( to myself) oh for pete's sake, so what you're hungry, you'll live if you wait to eat the banana till you get to the meeting instead of in the car. And i did!
Bkfst: Yogurt w/ oatmeal and blueberries my coffee (1)
Snack: banana
Lunch: GIGANTIC peach rice crackers (1) homemade chai
getting hungry for dinner now because i had a not so hungry day today. i really see how mood affects my hunger or lack thereof...
Dinner: (posted the next morning) CHicken saute'ed w/ garlic, tons of broccoli rice orange ice cream w/ choco sauce... all 'lite' (3)
little exercise except schlepping and cleaning
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Post by nightsinge on Sept 21, 2006 17:59:13 GMT -5
I'm so very sorry to hear about your friend's father. Peace and blessings to her and the family.
You're so right--what an important reminder to treasure our loved ones and let them know about it. Thank you.
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Post by sulee on Sept 22, 2006 8:18:51 GMT -5
ok the weight. last friday i weighed 199.8 and i freaked out as i was .2 away from a new and scary horror... 200. so i said girl you gotta get your act together. then that night i ate and drank ALOT! then saturday i went to a dinner party where i ate and drank ALOT and monday morning FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY WHOLE &*%&()@ LIFE i was over 200... 201.8 to be exact. so monday i said enough of this and have been back to being conscious and conscientious.
what i've decided to do, based on possibly flawed wisdom... but i'm doing it anyway (!) is i'm going to say that the weekend was the anomaly and if i hadn't been weighing in every day i'd never have known. but it did call me to action so i'm not ignoring it.
soooo...i'm starting at 199.8 (from last friday) and this morning i'm 198.4 -- i've lost 1.4 pounds. i think fridays are a good official weigh-in day because if i decide to return to meetings there's an early one on friday's that i'll attend.
Now the matter of a goal. the 16 year old in me wants to weigh 130---ridiculous. I'm aiming for 165-170.... which is 30-35 pounds. but right now... i would very much like to be about 185 by the end of the year... 5 pounds a month or so. i think i can do that.
P.S. i don't think i've actually ever said my weight here... it's a big, scary step to acknowledge the number that i am so very self-flagellating about.
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Post by nightsinge on Sept 22, 2006 14:29:42 GMT -5
(((Sulee)))
I so get the scariness and braveness of mentioning your weight for the first time. I was here for a month before I finally put a ticker up. What did it for me was feeling so inspired by everyone else's numbers.
200 IS scary and sure can seem like you've crossed a huge line. On the other hand, I celebrated when I finally got DOWN to 200--it's all in the perspective, no? Since you're back under--seeing it as an anomaly is a perfectly good deal--it sounds like you're also seeing it as a big warning sign. Hopefully that image of the scale will pop up when you're too tempted in the future!
And I totally agree about the goal numbers. My doctor signed a slip saying I should shoot for 160. I'm good with that as a goal.
185 by the end of the year sounds very doable. I know you can do it!
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Post by sulee on Sept 23, 2006 8:26:25 GMT -5
thanks, night, for understanding. i wondered if my opening up would send me into a bratty tailspin of i-don't-care-eating. but it didn't.
i had my standard friday night macaroni grill challenge exacerbated by having colleagues over for drinks. what i did with the latter was serve salsa and regular tortilla chips but i had rice crackers on hand for me (i LOVE them and they have waaaay fewer points) plus veggies and a lower fat fresh mozzerella. i was extremely hungry after work so i did eat a few points ( and drink a few as well) but they were seriously moderate compared to what i might have had.
then at MG...one of my best friends works there on Friday nights so my crowd of boys and I hang there, much to the detriment of my weight loss plans. i was not hungry so instead of ordering my own ridiculously high calorie meal, i had a bite of deep fried cheese and a couple of tastes of some alfredo monstrosity and i was happy. because i seriously ate so little yesterday, if i had been doing flex, i'm pretty sure that even the btl's of the totally fatty foods would still have kept me in range. i write this not because i think it's a good system but it was a better series of choices than my normal friday night debauch/saturday morning regret fest.
Today i have another party... a faculty thing... that will hold challenges for me, eating wise. I plan to eat a meal soon before i go. plus i teach class today and i have time for my 5 miler.
have a great day everyone and L'shanah tovah! Happy new year.
PS one of my goals for next high holiday season is to get connected with the jewish community here. i've been here long enough now... i think i can find 'em!
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Post by katelight on Sept 23, 2006 9:14:48 GMT -5
Sulee, I think I was here for possibly a year before stating my real starting weight and my goal weight. I did have a ticker, but it was based on pounds lost not actual weight. It was a tremendous step for me to write down the numbers. However, when I did, I could accept that I was 245 at my heaviest. Very emotionally cleansing for me. Congratulations on your Friday night success. I think you did GREAT. You will do wonderfully today too. I have faith in you. Have a great day Katie
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Post by cydkitty on Sept 23, 2006 17:39:51 GMT -5
I so get the not wanting to say your weight. It just is a number that I don't want to acknowledge. I figure when I 'm at the weight I want to be then I will admit my highest weight. I am also waiting to post pictures when I can post some results pictures too. Kudos to you for your courage
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Post by nightsinge on Sept 25, 2006 13:54:14 GMT -5
Awesome choices at that high calorie place, Sulee! (What does MG stand for?)
I've just joined synagogue again after a long hiatus. I have mixed feelings about it because I wasn't raised in the beliefs and feel estranged from the culture. I encourage you to follow the best path for you.
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Post by sulee on Sept 25, 2006 20:08:15 GMT -5
gawd i am tired tonight. taught 2 LOOOONNNNGGGG dance classes, each 1 hour and 45 minutes. that is a LOT. Had to go grocery shopping after work and was frustrated at my local food coop with prices and product availability. didn't have the stamina to go to the bigger market so i ended up eating veggie burgers for dinner....which was fine. B- oatmeal w/ skim milk and yogurt peach reg. coffee (2) L- a little chicken and broccoli S- (STARVING when i got home from school because i ate SO little during the day) last of the Lentil soup S- Baked tofu D- 2 veggie burgs... first w/ stirfried veggies, salsa and cottage cheese ...second w/ soy cheese, veggies and bbq sauce YUM! more tomorrow when i'm not semi-comatose sulee PS MG= Macaroni Grill
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