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Post by kally on May 26, 2006 0:24:31 GMT -5
3 Breadsticks (9) 1.5 bowls minestrone soup Tiramisu. 8 stinking points. One more time. ARG.
So I am looking at this menu and in my mind I would take the tiramisu over the breadsticks every time, so, whatever works for you. Some desserts are worth it, some aren't, but what is life without a little sweetness.
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Post by slimcris on May 26, 2006 9:12:51 GMT -5
Daily ReflectionsThat's funny Kally - if I would much rather have had 3 more breadsticks for those points Different strokes for different folks! Now if instead, that dessert had been the white chocolate cheesecake or the chocolate lasagna, I would have felt very differently about the points expenditure. I guess I just didn't like the tiramisu all that much, which is why I felt bitter.
It ended up not mattering all that much in the big picture anyway. I'm one of those chronic daily weighers. DF created a program in excel that tracks daily weights and converts them into a trend. To go along with it, is a chart that maps your goal line, and your trend line. As long as the trend falls in line with the goal, you're perfectly all right. So every morning we enter our weights on our charts to make sure that we're still following a downward trend, and that our trend matches our goal. So far we are both precisely where we need to be to lose 1lb by next week. So I'm now OK with the OG splurge. It's all about balancing it out.
Today is a good balance day in preparation for dinner out tonight, and the long weekend at DF's family's house.Breakfast Coffee Puffed Millet Soy MilkScrambled EggsSnack1 Apple 20oz WaterCoffee LunchMedium Salad; Organic greens, tomato, cucumber & avocadoCottage CheeseYogurtSnackOrganic whole wheat Pop Tarts (8) Dinner2C baby carrots I just felt like eating carrots. Weird. I made hummus to go with them, but by the time I was done making it, I didn't want the hummus anymore. Wish that happened with brownies ... 1/2bag Popcorn Guess it was a snacky kinda night. Snack1 slice ultra thin crust pizza (3)__________________________ Dairy: 2/2 F/V: 5+/5Protein: 2/2 Grains: 2 H2O: 8/8WP's:11-4AP=7 WPA Remaining:3 Exercise15 min walk X 1 (1), 25min walk X 2 (3) = 65min totalAP Earned:4
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Post by nightsinge on May 26, 2006 14:44:37 GMT -5
Only 25 min? When I'm writing papers, I'm lucky if I can take time away at all! Every 25 min is good.
Anyway, sounds to me like you're doing really, really well. Exercising a lot and every day or almost every day. You're anticipating your weekend and planning for it--even if that planning means being ok with the choices you might make. Wishing you a marvelous weekend.
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Post by slimcris on May 30, 2006 6:44:31 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Tuesday May 30Well, the weekend went ... alright, I suppose. I had forgotten that the reason we were going down was for a bonfire. Well, as it turns out we were the only guests and couldn't just sit there and watch while DF's uncle did all the heavy labor dragging the brush from the big pile over to the fire. So that's what we did for the last half of the day on Sunday (2pm-8pm). We worked hard and our bodies felt it! My hamstrings are still protesting. But that means we earned a lot of APs . Also drank a lot of beer, so those were pretty much negated - still built the muscle though I suppose! Lunch & Dinner ended up being hotdogs over the fire, and s'mores. I ate 2 hotdogs and *ahem* four *ahem* s'mores. They were tasty. ;D And there was a bit of grazing on potato chips. It was tough trying not to eat when I was so hungry from working so hard. The damage wouldn't have been so bad if we had been drinking diet soda or water rather than the empty-calorie beers. At least they were light ...
Breakfast yesterday morning was the killer. She was so proud of her meal that we felt we had to eat it out of obligation, though neither of us wanted any part of it. It was marketed as "French Toast". Not bad, right? We can skip the butter and go light on syrup, get some protein in, even though the bread will be white. Well, what we ended up with was "stuffed french toast". Stuffed with some cream cheese and berries? Nooooo. Stuffed with 4 pieces of bacon, turkey, and cheese. Ick. The turkey and cheese definitely should have been left out. And I could have done without half of the bacon. My stomach was angry with me all day for that little venture. But it meant a lot to her that we "liked" it enough to finish it all like they did .
The scale is up a bit this morning from where it was before the weekend, so sticking to the basics today with lots of fiber, protein and water.
On a side note, I meet with my employer today to work out terms of employment. Gonna have to work up the cajones to ask for more vacation time before I sign the paperwork.
Also, our dishwasher comes today! I CAN'T WAIT! We left all the dishes from the end of last week and this morning so I can run a load as soon as it gets here. Breakfast Coffee Oatmeal made w/ 1/2 water, 1/2 soy milkSnackYogurtLunchBig Salad!HB Egg, Soy Cheddar CheeseDiet Soda DinnerGrilled Vegetable Antipasto: asparagus, eggplant, tomatoes, onions & summer squash2 Slices Crostini (Crusty bread, olive oil, salt, garlic on the grill) 1 each Grilled Banana & Peach1C Skim Milk__________________________ Dairy: 2/2 F/V: 5+/5Protein: 2/2 Grains: 1 H2O: 6/10WP's: 4 - 5AP = 0WPA Remaining: 35Exercise30 min walk (2), 20 min treadmill (2), 10 min core strengthening (1)AP Earned: 5.
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Post by slimcris on May 31, 2006 7:26:58 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Wednesday May 31 So last night I hit the grill, and it was great!! I had such a lovely meal, full of veggies, got my oil in and felt completely satisfied all night.
I also got my dishwasher yesterday! I had it set up and running in a matter of minutes, and all of my dishes are caught up. I have clean counters, and a clean sink ... and a clean mind! I love it. I can now take that time I used to spend in the dishpan, and spend it cleaning up the rest of the house!
WI: 212.7, Down by .8lbs. Not quite the 1lb I was looking for, but at least it's down - and there's always next week!
Breakfast Coffee Scrambled Eggs 20 oz Water Lunch Leftover grilled veggies A bit of rotisserie chicken from DF's plate 1 slice crostinin (2) Snack 1 Grilled Peach (leftover) 1 Yogurt 1 serving potato chips (3), 1 cup hot chocolate (2) Dinner Turkey burger w/ taco seasnoning Big taco salad! Lettuce, tomato, avocado, onions 2T Sour Cream Lots of water! Snack No snackies after dinner! That's two days in a row! yay! __________________________
Dairy: 1/2 F/V: 5+/5 Protein: 2/2 Grains: H2O: 10/10 WP's: 7 - 2 = 5 WPA Remaining: 23
Exercise 15 min walk X 2 (2) = 30 min AP Earned: Only 2 today
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Post by nightsinge on May 31, 2006 14:41:10 GMT -5
Grats on your ALMOST lb! And damn those veggies sound yummy. Do you marinade them?
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Post by cydkitty on May 31, 2006 18:11:20 GMT -5
OK I have to tell you, your getting motivated by my exercise got me back at it this morning! I figured that if someone was getting motivated by ME I was sure going to stick with the gym. Funny how that works isn't it. Just wanted to say thanks for the note in my journal, it got me up this morning after a couple of mornings of snoozing!
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Post by slimcris on Jun 1, 2006 7:11:50 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Thursday June 1Hi gals! Thanks for the well-wishes and ongoing encouragement! Always fun to log in, get ready to type up a journal, and see that someone's been by.
Today I'm focusing hard on getting my waters in. I bought some bottled water last night so I can re-use the bottles and keep 3 or 4 in the fridge at a time. If I can just grab it and go I'll drink more of it. Especially if it's nice and cold. And, spurred on again by Cyd, I'm going to get a treadmill workout in, and some weights as well. Girl, we're becoming mutually perpetuating workout machines! ;DBreakfast Coffee w/ soy milk X 2 Oatmeal 1/2C Soy Milk2T RaisinsLunchBig SaladHB Egg, Leftover turkey taco meatSnackyogurtDinnerStir Fry: 1/2C whole wheat pastaOnions, peppers, water chestnuts, soy sauceSnackI must preface this by saying it was a goodbye celebration for DF, and we both decided to get a little wild before he leaves for a few days. Trust me; could have been MUCH worse! 3 glasses wine (6), 3 shots vodka(4), 1C cranberry juice(2) 1/2 Wendy's Frosty (3) Small fries(5)__________________________ Dairy: 2/2 F/V: 5/5Protein: 2/2 Grains: 1 H2O: 10/10WP's:20 - 2 = 18 WPA Remaining: 5 Exercise30min walk (2)AP Earned:2 so far Weekly Minutes Tally: 60/240
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Post by slimcris on Jun 8, 2006 8:24:03 GMT -5
It's time for a bit of reflective thought. I'm having a bit of a struggle with eating well. Part of me is pointing to the fact that I not only have lack of good foods around, I have too many trigger foods around. Like butter. And pbj. And pop tarts. All things that I bought a few weeks ago, under the guise "I can control these. I can have a little bit now and then". Well, in the past week I have eaten butter every day, had an open faced pbj every night (at least saving some calories on the top piece of bread ...) and finished off 2 packets of pop tarts. I also tend to do really well on days that I have structure, and really poorly on days that I don't. And when I babysit I fall apart, because they have chips, hot cocoa and cheese in great abundance.
I sometimes feel so ashamed that I can't control myself. I look in the mirror and know that I need to make changes. I know I don't want to be here forever. But it's such a physical and psychological struggle to remember that when I've got salty/sweet/fatty tasties staring my in the face. I'm not sure what else to do other than re-implement my plan of making sure I have plenty of good choices around at all times. Fruits and veggies that I love are a must. And I should get back into the habit of cooking up moderate amounts of lean proteins so that I have leftovers in the fridge to toss on salads, or just to pick at when I'm feeling snacky and would rather make pbj.
I've been justifying eating this junk by saying 'I don't want to deprive myself because then I'll just want to eat it all the time!'. But the sad truth is, I'm NOT depriving myself, and I STILL want it all the time! So I guess it's time for a change in mindset.
Either way, I didn't have a loss this week, or a gain. I suppose that's a small saving grace. So I'm gonna go shopping today and really load up on the goodies. No buying fruit in moderation. I'm buying in great abundance, so I always have something sweet to reach for, or to toss in my bag.
*sigh*. Why can't I just wake up thin, healthy, and hating junky crap? What I wouldn't pay for that to become a reality! Even just the hating junk part. Then the rest would be at least a little bit easier ...
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Post by nightsinge on Jun 8, 2006 13:40:50 GMT -5
*hug hug hug hug*
I so get that, the struggles around not feeling deprived and not going out of control. And what is it about peanut butter? My partner still eats it and I swear I can smell it across the room.
Being reflective is a big and important step though, right? So much easier (for me anyway) to just hide and not think about it...or justify my choices!
And it is so cool that you've maintained! Are you still taking those long walks?
Enjoy your fruit and veggie shopping! At least summer offers us a bazillion colorful, yummy choices! Glad you're still here and struggling alongside us.
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Post by slimcris on Jun 8, 2006 19:38:24 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Thursday June 8OK. Whinefest is over. I felt a little bad re-reading it, blabbing on and on as if I'm the only one here with food struggles. But then I decided not to feel bad because it was therapeutic for me, and helped me to re-focus. My whole day today was really good.
After lunch today I went shopping with a friend. We made it to Kohls and TJ Maxx. I had a lot of fun, and even found 7 shirts that I like (well 4 of them are the same polo, in different colors - but I need them for my new job). I also found 4 pair of earrings on deep discount, for $2/pair! The down side was that I was really bummed out at the fit of most of the shirts I tried on, and all of the pants. It really gave me that extra focus that I needed to make it through the rest of the day eating well, and to push me into working out tonight. I so hate having to dress dumpy, to cover rolls and unflattering areas that could be gone by now if I'd just stuck to program. Ugh. I'm really trying not to wallow, because wallowing triggers binges. Rather, I'm trying to use it as a learning experience. Is this where I want to be a year from now? Still slumping in the dressing room wishing I were 4 sizes smaller?
So I came home with my purchases, ate a big salad for dinner with lots of veggies and beans, had a bottle of water and went for a run. Then I lifted some weights. I feel much better now!
And no, Steph - I haven't been keeping up the long walks. We walked this morning because it wasn't pouring. But it has been raining nonstop here for over 2 weeks, which I'm sure has a huge effect on this whole slump I'm in. It's gray, cold, overcast, and wet all the time. We can't walk, ride bikes, play basketball. And after sitting inside all day making less-than-optimal food choices, it's been hard to instill the motivation to work out in our gym. But I worked past that today, and if I could do it today I can do it any day. Just need to keep conscious of it.
Anyhow, I'm making some mashed potatoes for some post-workout substance - my potatoes are going soft and need to be used soon. And, it's a better choice than brownies or poptarts or pbj! One day, one struggle, one lesson at a time.Breakfast Coffee Puffed Corn Cereal Soy MilkScrambled Eggs (1egg+2whites)LunchHad a lunch meeting, with lunch provided. Chose lowest cal option, vegetarian plate. Bulky Roll (3), 2 slices swiss cheese (4)Lettuce, tomato, onion, peppers, black olives on sandwich, hummusMelon, pineapple, apple chunksSnackSkim SF Vanilla Latte1HB Egg Dinner1oz leftover grilled chicken, 1/2C black beansBig Salad; lettuce, tomato, onion, avocado, cucumberSnack1C Homemade mashed potatoes (made w/ soy milk) __________________________ Dairy: 2+/2 F/V: 5+/5Protein: 2/2 Grains: 1 H2O: 10/10WP's: 7 - 7AP WPA Remaining: Exercise30min walk (2), 25min run (3), 15min circuit training (2)AP Earned Today: 7Total Exercise (mins): 70/240
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Post by slimcris on Jun 9, 2006 7:05:08 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Friday June 9 Starting my morning off right! A long walk - it's gray this morning, but thankfully not raining. And came home to a nice warm bowl of oatmeal. I'm right chock full of energy this morning, so I'm going to go do my grocery shopping early in the day. I never made it yesterday because of the clothes shopping trip.
Breakfast Coffee X 2 Oatmeal Splash of skim milk Lunch 1/2 chicken breast grapes Wasn't very hungry. Snack Coffee w/ skim milk Apple 1oz potato chips (3) Dinner Mexican Confetti Rice - sooo tasty! Like a fajita without the tortilla: 2oz skinless chicken Sm onion, 1/2 Green pepper, 1/2 Tomato, 1/4 Avocado 1C Brown Rice 1/2 Taco seasoning packet Snack 2 glasses white wine (4), pbj(6). I think I need to get rid of the pbj. __________________________
Dairy: <1/2 F/V: 5+/5 Protein: 2/2 Grains: 2 H2O: 10/10 WP's: 13 WPA Remaining:
Exercise 30 min walk (2) AP Earned Today:2 Total exercise (mins): 100/240
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Post by nightsinge on Jun 9, 2006 14:26:59 GMT -5
OK I gotta get out there and walk more. I do! Thanks for the inspiration.
I want to address what you said about being down in my journal. Honey, first of all you wrote that you're depressed over slow progress. The emphasis there is progress!!! The overall arch is a good arch, right? I dunno about you, but it'd be a slow gain to hell for me if I weren't doing this.
Secondly, think of how many doctors and studies and blah blah have shown that FAST weight loss isn't only unhealthy, it tends to be impermanent. What you're doing is the right way to lose.
So...good for you!
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Post by slimcris on Jun 10, 2006 9:49:24 GMT -5
Daily Reflections, Friday June 9Thanks, Steph, for the positivity. I think I just have a really hard time considering the last year progress, when I weigh the same now that I did a year ago. Despite weight and food being constantly on my mind, I'm still no further ahead. I suppose that at least that means I haven't gained anything in the past year.
I keep telling myself that when life gets less stressful I'll regain complete control. But the thing is, I never HAD complete control to begin with! AND life is never going to be un-stressful. I thought with the ending of school it would get better, but I've been just as stressed as ever with the board exam and the prospect of starting a new job. And when the exam is over, I'll be taking over a client load who is unhappy that their last therapist left and their old clinic closed. And just when I'm getting used to that the school systems will start up at the end of August and I'll have the stress of being on my own treating kids in the schools. It's a vicious cycle, and the reality is that I need to learn to control myself while under stress. My shutdown mechanism is to eat myself into a coma, and that's really just not productive.
So all in all, it's been a slow process, and I haven't lost any weight in a whole year. But I have gained some insight and learned things about myself and about the changes I need to make, so all is not lost. It's just easy on those bad days to get sucked into the 'woe is me' mentality and lose perspective on all of the things I've picked up on in the last year that will help me continue with the weight loss.
On a brighter note, I went grocery shopping yesterday. Got lots of grapes, a couple mangoes, pears, apples, bananas, fresh sugar snap peas, green peppers, tomatoes, and baby carrots. All that fiber should propell me through the weekend and enable me to stay strong until WI next wed. I know that as long as I keep it up, results will come. It's the keeping it up part that is proving to be a bit tricky .
Oh, and I learned that I'm addicted to pbj. There's no 2 ways about it. Until this morning I just thought I liked it a lot. So I considered tossing the remaining 1/2jar of each in the trash so I couldn't sabotage myself anymore. My immediate reaction? NO WAY! *sigh* This is not a good sign. So I decided to put them in a paper bag, and put them up on the third floor where all of our storage is. This way, when I really do want one, I can still truck up there and get the supplies. But I don't have to look at it on the shelf every night, and it's not quite so easy access. So I really have to think about it and want it. If this doesn't work, I'm going to make DF do the deed. Man ... how rediculous is this? I can't throw away PB and J? *sigh* Brunch Coffee X 2 Cream of wheat 1 pear, 1/2 MangoScrambled eggs + Extra whitesLunchSnack DinnerSnack__________________________ Dairy: /2 F/V: /5Protein: /2 Grains: H2O: /10WP's: WPA Remaining: ExerciseAP Earned Today: Total exercise (mins): 100/240
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Post by nightsinge on Jun 10, 2006 14:12:50 GMT -5
Yay for throwing the evil pb in the trash!!! Way to go!
You're so right about stress being a constant! What's important is for us to get better ways of dealing with it than eating (that goes for me too).
Stress will always be there, but you are going through a transition time in your life too--moving out the school life, focusing on the boards and learning a new job. Even more challenging to have a food routine when your life routines are changing. I'm glad you keep working on it!
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