Post by sarpon on Dec 27, 2005 7:53:21 GMT -5
12/26/05
WPAs used: 1
APs earned: 0
8GHG
Fruits/vegs: 5
Whole grains: 0
Dairy svgs: 2
Oil: 0
Protein svgs: 6
Sugar/alcohol: 0
Water: 44 oz
Vitamin: Y
I had a Core food day! No activity, but I didn't overeat and I didn't start eating non-Core foods or binging when I got tired. And I didn't do very well on the GHG either. If I'd thought about it, I could have drizzled some oil into the bean soup I had for dinner.
I don't like to set goals, either in terms of pounds or time, because I tend to react badly to them. However, I am looking forward to my next milestone, which will be to get my 75 pound magnet. After that, it will be to get into the 140's for the first time since I was 12 years old. And after that, reaching my WW goal weight.
But none of those things really motivate me. As I've said many times, I know that the weight loss phase, and getting to goal, is essentially meaningless -- short term stuff. This is really just the way things are going to be for me for the rest of my life. I've been unhappy lately, and I have allowed myself to slip back into old eating habits and those habits, rather than easing my unhappiness, have compounded it.
Just as a confluence of factors came together for me in January of 2005 to start me on the beginning of this process, a confluence of negative factors came at me in the past couple of months. A huge sea change in my practice, the overwhelming workload that came with it, the economic impact it has carried, the uncertainty for my professional future and the amount of work and determination it will take to keep up in the near future, coupled with the anniversary of my father's death and my husband's growing frustration with my inability to snap out of it have worn on me more than I've realized. I'm really pleased that given all of that I haven't gained weight, as I would have in the past.
It is what it is and it isn't going away. Nothing is going to get better by being pushed to the side. Time to deal. I'm getting a jump on a New Year's resolution for 2006. Back to basics because it feels good.
WPAs used: 1
APs earned: 0
8GHG
Fruits/vegs: 5
Whole grains: 0
Dairy svgs: 2
Oil: 0
Protein svgs: 6
Sugar/alcohol: 0
Water: 44 oz
Vitamin: Y
I had a Core food day! No activity, but I didn't overeat and I didn't start eating non-Core foods or binging when I got tired. And I didn't do very well on the GHG either. If I'd thought about it, I could have drizzled some oil into the bean soup I had for dinner.
I don't like to set goals, either in terms of pounds or time, because I tend to react badly to them. However, I am looking forward to my next milestone, which will be to get my 75 pound magnet. After that, it will be to get into the 140's for the first time since I was 12 years old. And after that, reaching my WW goal weight.
But none of those things really motivate me. As I've said many times, I know that the weight loss phase, and getting to goal, is essentially meaningless -- short term stuff. This is really just the way things are going to be for me for the rest of my life. I've been unhappy lately, and I have allowed myself to slip back into old eating habits and those habits, rather than easing my unhappiness, have compounded it.
Just as a confluence of factors came together for me in January of 2005 to start me on the beginning of this process, a confluence of negative factors came at me in the past couple of months. A huge sea change in my practice, the overwhelming workload that came with it, the economic impact it has carried, the uncertainty for my professional future and the amount of work and determination it will take to keep up in the near future, coupled with the anniversary of my father's death and my husband's growing frustration with my inability to snap out of it have worn on me more than I've realized. I'm really pleased that given all of that I haven't gained weight, as I would have in the past.
It is what it is and it isn't going away. Nothing is going to get better by being pushed to the side. Time to deal. I'm getting a jump on a New Year's resolution for 2006. Back to basics because it feels good.
