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Post by mightycore on Feb 19, 2007 12:32:11 GMT -5
Hi everyone!! Remember me? krb? I skipped merrily into the warm June sunshine last year confident in my newfound lean(ish), toned body and positive outlook on life and all things. What happened? In an attempt to lose my obsessiveness, I lost my focus. Each time I became a little more permissive with myself (it's okay to skip exercise today, or this have this piece of cake, my motivation diminished in proportion, and my size and overall feeling of wellbeing responded accordingly. Yuck. So I return, with a new name (krb was boring), a wobblier casing, a higher number on the scale, a lower self-esteem, a worse energy (in the sense of 'every level' and 'vibe...' I agree with Wildflower...poor nutrition makes me act and feel crazy too.) I was reading through some posts and realized how much I have missed you wonderful folk, and how much I need your support, wisdom, and unconditional acceptance. So, this is a a quick note to say hello, I'm happy to be back, and I'll return later in the day. xox, Karen
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Post by nightsinge on Feb 19, 2007 13:30:25 GMT -5
Welcome back, Karen!
Wow, your words ring so true for me--trying to find that balance between obsessing about food and staying on track. I sure am looking forward to your future posts. Happy return to core in the meantime!
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Post by chicagobeth on Feb 19, 2007 15:13:35 GMT -5
Hey karen - welcome back! I hear what you're saying being just a few pounds from goal myself. It is a tough line to draw between obsessing about a number on the scale and trying to stay healthy. I wish you the best of luck in your continuing journey!
-Beth
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Post by mightycore on Feb 20, 2007 0:51:29 GMT -5
Thanks Night and Beth. It's good to be back. I joined this Board soon after it started back in the day. When I left it in June I erased my profile, which now renders me an official "newbie." This is a good thing. I'm happy to re-approach in a fresh way. My plan is to rejoin WW (which is right down the street from me), do a big shop for staples, re-committ to regular excercise, touch base here periodically, and follow the GHGs. My goals are to lose 15 lbs of fat, gain and tone muscle, increase my cardio fitness, drop 2 sizes, and feel good, steady, and balanced. Simple, but not easy. I am excited for the day when it once again feels easy. It'll come back quickly if I work it, I know.
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Post by katelight on Feb 20, 2007 7:40:54 GMT -5
Balanced... what an amazing word that is. It is a tightrope walk through this journey, and I'm right there with you. Eventhough I go to meetings almost every week, I'm still up about 5lbs (still within my goal range, but higher than where I want to be) so dear friend, we'll re-committ together. We know we can do this. Being on track feels so good and works so well. It's great to have you back home here at Kippy's HIHO Katie
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Post by girliepurple on Feb 20, 2007 14:12:00 GMT -5
Hi, Karen and welcome back!! ;D
The important thing is you are back, this time for good! I find this is a difficult journey that never ends. I too am struggling with being too permissive. So glad you are back so that we can all motivate each other again. You have a good plan - I know you can do it!
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Post by nightsinge on Feb 20, 2007 17:25:22 GMT -5
Thank you so much for your kind words in my journal.
I love your goals and fresh outlook! I agree with Katie--that word "balance" is what it's really all about, isn't it? Wishing you a fabulous, core, balanced week!
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Post by mightycore on Feb 21, 2007 18:54:10 GMT -5
Plan: 1. Re-join WeightWatchers: Done. (free registration this week!) Starting weight 139.4 (I'm 5'2") which is almost where I was when I first started core a few years ago (wow). I'm not so preoccupied with the number, I'd take it if it didn't jiggle and bulge. This is about feeling good, feeling strong, feeling capable. 2. Big Shop for staples: Done. $161. at Trader Joe's (ouch!) 3. Re-commit to regular excercise: Right-o. Picked up my k'bells again. 2x so far this week. Plan to resume spinning classes Friday (also ouch, but a good ouch). 4. GHGs: water....oh, right! and satisfaction zones (2-3...I remember!), fruits and veggies.....oh! those colorful things that grow out of the ground and make you feel right in the head...gotcha! Meeting was all about positive self-talk, all-or-nothing thinking.....everything rang true. Afterwards I re-discovered the joys of a healthy smoothie, and the expansiveness of adequate hydration. Beats the feeling of perpetual sludge circulating after a diet of chocolate and baked goods. Remember that?! Karen
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Post by girliepurple on Feb 22, 2007 8:33:21 GMT -5
Karen - what a great plan. You are on your way, girl!
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Post by mightycore on Feb 22, 2007 23:11:36 GMT -5
What a great feeling it is to eat a plate of delicious food without guilt. I had an excellent core day, did a hard workout after work, then sat down to yumminess made by dh, which included chicken sausage earned with my APs. I am satiated, a little sore, and tired, and will sleep well. An observation: the food-mood circuit is a rather short one, meaning I have noticed an almost immediate positive psychological response to putting good things and enuf h20 in my body, and allowing said body to function in a way in which it is, presumably, intended (ie, excercise..the use of muscles, bone, and things connective.) Another observation: if I eat when I am hungry (in, say, comfort zone 2), I appreciate my food in what feels like an authentic, measured way. This, I suppose, is a no-brainer, but one of my observations du jour, nonetheless.
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Post by nightsinge on Feb 23, 2007 15:04:56 GMT -5
*takes Karen's hand*
You got it babe, walking together--woo hoo! And let's remember that it's a journey, not a race (cause we don't want to turn around and race back up again, right? )
Excellent observation about the food-mood circuit. Unfortunately, I've done research too often in the other direction. I can report that too much of an unhealthy thing creates an instant mood chain-reaction as well! Can I just report my findings and move on? ;D
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Post by mightycore on Feb 24, 2007 11:13:42 GMT -5
Oh, I know that song, too, Night. I've spent the last few months singing it. I like this new tune a whole lot better.
Okay, I'm going to spell out my plan today because it's DS's birthday sleepover, and parties (even with 8 yos) are a challenge for me simply because there's cake). Starting out, I have 18 WPAs left till Wed am (used a bunch last night), and I've earned 10 APs so far this week.
Morning: Hard workout, breakfast, chiropractor. Afternoon: lunch, party prep (cleaning, essentially), 3 kooky little boys arrive at 3pm for a sleepover. Souplantation for an early dinner. Super easy to eat core there...salads, soups, baked potato, and fruit for dessert. I will NOT have any of the baked goods or prepared desserts. We will stick a candle in a something for ds and sing happy birthday and then there will be no cake at home. Evening: The boys will play outside till dark, then we'll settle them in for a movie and hope they fall asleep before 11pm. Healthy snacks for them: veggies, fruit, popcorn. Breakfast in the am...eggs, canadian bacon, fruit, cottage cheese. THEN at lunch I bring them all over the the pizza joint down the street for YET ANOTHER birthday party (someone else's ds). I will not eat the pizza. I will have a core lunch before going over there. After it's all over, I will workout.
There. That should do it.
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Post by mightycore on Feb 25, 2007 16:43:13 GMT -5
Feeling overwhelmed today. Exhausted. Depressed, actually. My work is particularly intense these days. I've managed to keep a lid on my emotions (I wonder if my poor diet and lack of excercise in recent months functioned as this lid, you know, dulling things and keeping them manageable). But I feel like the top's blown off and an eruption is in play. You know how folks report increased nasty physical, ie gastrointestinal, symptoms with going off sugar and switching to, say, Core? I wonder if maybe this is a sort of emotional detox. I do know that I MUST simplify my life. Well, despite my hopefully temporary mood disorder, things have gone essentially according to plan. I have eaten no sugar. I have stayed Core-true. I did over-do it (understatement) on my workout yesterday morning in anticipation of indulgences, which I did not consume (moderation, remember moderation...), but forced myself to the gym this morning for a spinning class (full! darn!) and instead did 40 minutes on the crosstrainer, more for the needed endorphin response than the APs. I am grateful to DH for taking the boys to birthday party #2, and dd is with a friend, so my house is quiet for the afternoon. My co-workers are being so supportive and covering my night shift tomorrow so I can get a grip. If nothing else, I am going to nourish my body with healthy food. If nothing else, I will get out for a walk with the dog. If nothing else I will get a good night sleep tonight. I've earned 21 APs this week and used 18 WPAs. I am going to focus. Gentle focus. Soft focus.
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Post by mightycore on Feb 26, 2007 10:57:42 GMT -5
Onward. My plan today: get a grip, get stuff done, thank my lucky stars for my colleagues.
breakfast: coffee, oatmeal w/ one egg mixed in, banana lunch: soup made with w/ tofu, veggies and ww pasta dinner: teriyaki chicken, veggies snacks: ww smoothie, fruit
If I can, I will try to hike up our local mountain today with the dog (who is 8 months old, no longer the teensy-weensy 8w old in the picture.)
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Post by mightycore on Feb 27, 2007 14:30:24 GMT -5
Down 2.8 today. And that's a day early and after drinking a liter of water! So I guess I'm doing something right. I've used 20/35 WPAs and earned 24 APs this week. No sugar. Followed the GHGs pretty well. I'm continuing to fight this funk I'm in, and the rain's not helping. Though, as a native New Englander who then spent 7 years in Chicago, I'll take the rain over the snow and cold any day of the week. My points reset tomorrow. Today is ds' actual birthday and I just bought cheesecake, icecream, and hotdog buns for the 97% ff Hebrew Nationals I have in the fridge. My plan is to NOT have any of the sugar, maybe to make some core pudding instead. I can do it. I know that even a little bit of sugar can launch me into a binge, so I'm best off staying away from it entirely. Funny thing for me, I don't even have the craving for it at the moment.
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