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[saraha]

See, that 10% thing, I don't get that. It should be 10% of what you want to loose, the difference between your starting weight and your goal weight NOT 10% of what you weigh. Because you can't loose 100% of what your starting weight, you would be a zero--like a desperate housewife or lindsay loughan or someone like that....and why would I want that? So in December, when I have lost 174 pounds (right? ) I want to have TEN ribbons or keychains, whatever, to show that I am all the way there. As it is, I will only have five ribbons (or keychains, whatever). What the heck will I do with only five? I want TEN!

I'm going to write letters. We need to do something about this!

Plus 33 pounds seems so far away.....

And what am I to do with the little star I got today for 5 pounds? Does it go on this alleged keychain? Really, I see these stars getting passed out, where do they go? My rearview mirror? Am I supposed to sew it on some sort of uniform or sash or something?? What do I do with that little star?

This is a new culture for me. I seem to be having trouble adapting.

Sarah
(muttering now)

You know I only went here now because Night encouraged me. I wasn't going to post this rant--though I have shared it with DH, DS, my mom, my sister, two nieces AND the lady next door!

[xenagoddess]

Breath... I would suggest buying yourself some award ribbons and rewardings yourself what ever way you see fit. WW will have their own rules but certainly you can celebrate your little triumphs in your own way.

[pookie]

actually, I did use my 5 pound stickers to decorate my car! I put them on my radio buttons and other dashboard areas. It was fun and a great conversation starter when I gave rides to people

[cydkitty]

I put my stars in my Weight loss booklet

[nightsinge]

They didn't give you a bookmark?

Over in my neck of the WW woods, they give you a bookmark at your first five. The stickers then add to the bookmark to show how many five poundses you've lost!

I've thought about taking them off and putting them in my journal though.

And YAY, rants!

[katelight]

Sarah, you crack me up. I know you feel passionately about this, but it's still funny.
My stars are on the book mark I got when I lost the first 5lbs. The whole thing hangs on my fridge.
Make your own reward system like xena said. Rewards are a great motivator.
Take care
Katie

[nightsinge]

How are you doing, my funny friend? I miss your posts--sending you good thoughts through the airwaves...

[saraha]

Okay, the honeymoon is over. Today is hard for me. I've been doing so well and feeling like I was in a groove but in the last few days it seems to have fallen apart ('it' being my diet). I'm trying to figure out how I got here. Just over the weekend I had been thinking how strange it was to not be hungry. I did great all weekend. But then Monday, having worked all night then had to run DS to his drawing class and pick him up 2 hrs later, my resistance was down and I must have been hungry because he suggested Mexican for lunch and I agreed and then ordered something that was not even very good but with refried beans and rice and a tortilla. I think that sent me for a loop--off the wagon, so to speak. That night I almost went crazy with the LF ice cream treats (did I post that here). Tuesday I had a couple of Oreos (okay, maybe 4), Wednesday I was frantically studying all day and then had book club. Had no dinner and then there were brownies there. I had a couple of brownies then and considered stopping on my way home to buy the stuff to make a whole batch. I was able to resist that but today I still wanted brownies, even after my inspiring WW meeting. I ended up getting a box of brownie muffins and ate 2. Figured the points for two---NINE points! Ugh! So I tallied them up and recorded them--fixed myself a core lunch but I'm still feeling it--want to be bad. I have watermelon so I think I will just eat that and see if I can make it go away.

Once again, it's like alcohol. I little slip and there I went....I'm not giving up, though. I feel better having sat down and thought about it. I'm hanging on.

Thanks for the support.
I'm breathing.
Sarah

[nightsinge]

Yeah, except you can live without having alcohol every day, right?

I hate that out of control feeling. Ugh! Because I'm a diabetic, I've been trying hard to balance amounts of insulin with food amounts. The scariest thing is feeling like I'm "crashing" and there's only a bakery or MacDonalds around.

So I am buying tons of apples. Wherever I go, I carry some with me. Would that work for you?

Hugs and blessings.

[saraha]

....and I'm still here! I fulfilled the committment I made to stick with Core for 6 weeks and go to all the meetings. I am very proud of myself for that. It feels good. I see the changes starting to become habits. I've lost 22+ pounds which is also great but almost feels incidental.

So next week I will buy meeting tickets to get me through the rest of the summer (some deal I saw posted this week). That will be my next commitment.

I'm on a 2-week break from school so no homework this week! Yayyy! It's been perfect pool weather and we are just eating it up. I finally got my annuals into the flower beds and containers. It's nearly too late! Tonight I have to go back to work, though. Kind of bummed about that.

[girliepurple]

Sarah - you're doing great, keep it up!! I'm lurking around Kippy's, I checked your info... ... we are the same age, I'm Aries too 4/6/62 ...and it took me 23 MONTHS to lose 22 pounds!!! OK yeah that's "all" I had to lose, but "all" is not the word to use as far as I'm concerned. You should be so proud, you stuck with it, for YOURSELF! AND you have a plan for that summer pass, excellent! Have a great weekend.

[mbintexas]

Sarah - don't be so hard on yourself - you are doing GREAT!!!!

22+ pounds is AMAZING - keep up the great work.

I have only been on the Core Program a couple weeks and have lost 7.8 pounds and am very proud of myself!

From the sounds of things - you are a very busy lady and to be making such a huge life change in the midst of it all is very inspiring to me!

Take care..........

[nightsinge]

YAY Saraha!!!!!

I'm soooo proud of you! Now stop saying that 22 lbs is nothing. Every step on this journey is a major, important step and nothing to sneer at.

The next time you're at a grocery store, do me a favor--stop by the dry dog food section and pick up a 20 lb bag of dog food. See how heavy it is. Throw it over your shoulder. Try to hold it with one hand....I'm just sayin'


By the way, I forgot you are in school! How's it going for you?

Again, I'm so proud of you for being here and staying with it. Yay!

*hugs*

[saraha]

Hi all,

I've been away for a while but not too far off. I'm hanging in there, still OP for the most part (but not exercising yet--maybe soon). I'm just .3 away from my 25-pound lost star. I feel great about it. I'm doing it, it's working. I'm just pretty busy the last few weeks and so not actually thinking about it so much.

Anyway, I'm getting ready to go on vacation tomorrow. I have not planned well at all but I'm going to do my best to eat core and keep my points low....but also keep it in balance with the whole vacation concept (relax and enjoy). I just really don't want to gain. And even more importantly, I want to at least jump back on as soon as I get back in a week. I do not want to let this blow me out of the water for another 10 years.

So part of my strategy is to make a promise to come back here and post an update when I get back. I hereby make that commitment, that you will see me back here next Tuesday (the whatth? 11th? Must be.) If I don't come back will someone please hunt me down and blast me with guilt to drag me back OP? Night? Will ya? write me at [e-mail].

Thanks for being here. Sorry I have neglected my duties here ...

Sarah

[nightsinge]

GET BACK HERE BY THE ELEVENTH OR ELSE!!!!!!


*giggle*

Good luck and happy vacation!